Inspiring Imagination

2009-12-04T12:06:00.002+08:00

The ugliness of hypocrisy amongst the people that you love ...

So we really have no one that we can depend on in times of need other then ourselves.
Its a sad fact.
Will there ever be anyone that can truly understand us?

2009-12-03T23:43:00.003+08:00

Wow. It has been ages since I have last updated my blog, I guess I'm passed that stage of writing one entry every other day, rather I prefer to indulge in reading blogs now.
Its December again. How time flies. Some say that once pass the age of 21, and time flies like a bitch. The latest I've heard from a few friends, is that time flies even faster after you've blown the last candle of your 25th birthday cake. I'm not looking forward to proving that right.

Life is a bitch and God is constantly putting his child through trials of her least favourite things. I cant understand why I'm being tested for my own principles and someone else's bad habits. Why do I have to be the one that is always adapting to the consequences of other's doing. Does it really make me to become a bigger person? Or is it just an excuse to minimize the hurt of knowing my importance to others... the lack of it. All these are making me becoming into an angrier person then i should be. Too much frustration and anger and I'm sick of all these.

Went to a FT that day, I know I shouldn't believe in such things but my curiosity take over the better of me; I will just take all of it with a pinch of salt. What he told me was pleasant to the ears but I don't think I will believe much of everything he'd said. Besides, the current situation is actually making me cast more doubts on his predictions. No idea how he'd derived to that 'ending' but I'm seriously reconsidering. Too many things can change in one minute, a few hours, one day.. whats more if we're talking about something that might happen in a year's time.

On a happier note, I've won the Individual Catalyst award (Term 3, 2009) and the Team Catalyst award in my company. I don't usually like to 'brag' about such achievements but since this blog is nearly non-existent now, I guess it doesn't make a big difference. I'm really happy that my hard work really pays off, with everyone's help and not to forget my Superiors' acknowledgments and nomination. At least as this year 2009 draws to an end, I've not only achieve in my career, but I've kinda marked off one of my resolution :)
Cheers to me in a one 'man' celebration...

2009-04-26T22:59:00.008+08:00

Quarter Life Crisis

Funny as it is that everyday, i go through the same mental note to update my blog when I get home; I will always have the urge to write in the day but the desire dies down when i sit in front of my desktop. I never come around doing it, there's always something else that needed attention. Time just runs pass the digits and adds another day to the year.

This year was the start to doing something differently, to pick up things that I have always wanted to learn which I did - Salsa. Joined with a group of friends and I look forward to that exhilarating one hour of quick step hip movements and Cuban fast-paced music. It makes me feel young again.
I looked around me every time, and I see young pretty girls dressing up, having fun living their life. What they seemed to be experiencing looked so different from what I did when I was at their age.. and that was just a few years back.

I feel old; in terms of looks, maturity and perspectives. Make up is one of the greatest invention to date, it masks the flaws of age but yet slowly and discretely, it contributes to the dry, rough and inelastic skin of once a young girl. I have always been a risk-adverse person, but in my younger days, I like to throw in moments of excitement and fun, surprises that enlivened my life and made school like a hang out place away from town. Right now, I feel empty and scared to try new things, and feel guilty of making the wrong choice and how it would impact the people around me. I was reading an article on Cosmopolitan over the weekend, it talks about how women are more prone to feeling guilty the 'fact' that they cant support their love ones wholeheartedly in the expense of her own interests, the fact that they cant put others needs ahead of theirs etc (I should talk more about this in details when i have the article on hand). The point is, was I in this category; why do i always feel bad if I cant do a certain something that will make someone else happy?
I wondered how differently my life could have been if I went ahead and studied overseas instead of feeling bad for touching my family's already strained finance when my sis was studying in Australia. And when I gave up studying my third year for my university course over in Melbourne. As well as the half a year's of exchange program in North Carolina for the fear that the distance and time difference might cause strain to my relationship then. Not to mention that I have thought about working overseas, to experience life when Im younger but have dismissed the thought as my parents might be lonely.
Largely I just blame myself for procrastinating and being indecisive. I don't have overly high expectations of myself, although some did see me as a perfectionist, its just that I never get about achieving things that will make me feel less bitter inside because of my guilt, my weakness that Im too soft hearted to be cruel to make others worry.
Or maybe... Im just too afriad to take the plunge.

I'm worried that I will never get to achieve 'it', I'll just be someone ordinary, that wakes up at 7 and goes to work behind the desk from 9 - 7pm. Maybe I will have a family in a few years time and goes home to do household chores, cook and attend to my children, who will grow up and they will experience the life that I have always dream of. My life will always be just a colored television; one that sees what is happening around the world, but will always remain on the shelf, in the house, with the whole big universe out there.

Why are so many acquaintance and friends of mine getting married this year? At 25?! or the one and two years that doesnt make much of a difference. Its a thought that feels so foreign to me, i cannot imagine getting married to someone, being tied down and doing the above for the rest of my life. Having kids, when Im not ready to even think I have totally grown up and see the world like how adults do.

My heart feels like it weighs a ton and that I have just 'wasted' an hour 'screaming' out what has been living inside me for a year or two, something that will only change if I can be strong enough.
Was I as strong as I used to be?

2009-03-15T12:10:00.008+08:00

Happy Birthday Sis!

Found some quizzes on a girlfriend's blog and the curiosity in me on how much I know myself couldn't resist not attempting them.

How Attractive am I?

[Part 1] Self Confidence: 63% -> You doubt yourself in some situations.
[Part 2] Sensory Perceptions: 80% -> Extremely sensitive to surrounding stimulation.
[Part 3] Body Language: 80% -> You are a real expert!
[Part 4] Conversational Skills: 80% -> A real talent!
[Part 5] Empathy For Others: 80% -> An extremely kind and warm person.

What am I thinking about?

You think money and love are equally important. You have an interest in many things in life, and work hard to ensure that you maintain a healthy balance between work, play and love. However, you tend to be unable to decide on what you really want to do with your life. You wouldn't dream of leaving your loved one for one or two million dollars, but you would have to reconsider if the offer rose to 100 million dollars.

What's my personality love style?

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

You are always cheerful and charming. You never get too serious with people when they're around, but when you are alone, you think carefully about what they have said. That's because you don't want anyone to see you being too somber. Your personality means you have a lot of friends and you are often the center of attention. Many people who fall into this category become artists and movie stars, perhaps fame could be yours in the future as well.

You love a good life. You live extravagantly and like everything around you to be beautifully crafted. You are optimistic, have an excellent sense of humor and enjoy having your friends around you.

You are a family person. You love your home and care for everyone in your family. You are kind and often sacrifice yourself to make others happy. You are proud of everything that belongs to you.

You have strong attitudes towards things. You often manipulate a story you've heard. It is not completely lying. You just add things to what you have heard and retell it in a different way.

You are ambitious. Your husband is likely to be a well educated and well-to-do. He should also have a secure job and succeed in his career. You do not care much what others think of you. You choose the man who adores you. You always dress well without caring how much you have to spend on your clothes. You are embraced with wealth.

All the quizzes are found on http://www.quizbox.com/personality/

2009-02-09T20:57:00.002+08:00

Defamation!

One thing about me is that I hate to be wrongfully accused, but who does. There's a certain degree of justice/fairness that i hope to 'earn' when I engage in a 'relationship' with someone. At times, boundaries get crossed but we all know that that is life - realism. I can accept that.
What I can't accept is when the someone overstepped the border and continue in his/her* pursue to besmear someone's reputation, alleging false claims on her.

I expect more from someone of his/her* position, putting that aside, professionalism in a work place is very important especially when you* are at the top of the fish-bone.
Going down to using personal attack not only reflects how low a character you* have but also your capability to uphold your position.

Does one really have to be cut-throat just to reach the top?

2009-02-03T22:54:00.002+08:00

Frustrations

I waved white flag to my incompetence. Everywhere i go the people i meet seemed to be well-read about their respective areas, in addition a wide knowledge about the things that are happening around us. Why does it seem like I have nothing to contribute at all?
I have to put in doubly the effort and I might just be moving one step forward, yet two steps behind them still. Not to mention, my procrastination and the time I have , or rather a lack of that, discourage me as I continue to add a day to me being alive.
My goal has been moving further and further away. I don't see it anymore.
Yet when ever I see people like them or that are working in the same environment, i kick myself in the face because of my incompetence and wallow in jealousy.

Why do some get to do what they want and is loving it while some can only dream of it at night.

Tired from all the audit work. The Lion audit is driving me crazy for the last few weeks and more so these few days; have to curb with my impatience of getting it over and done with, and answer to all the queries.
Its month end again. Darn. More work, month end funds, reconciliations procedures etc.
I visualize the slightest sign of winkles appearing, feeling the tension in my body every time when Im on my feet going to collect reports, the trembling headaches and shortness of breathe.

I need out.

A friend is currently in NY, i wonder if she has found what I have wanted. I want retail therapy badly but I need to save! ArgH!
I have so much frustrations inside me that I dont even know how much I can take anymore. When will the 'rubber band' snap?

Out.

2008-12-29T22:39:00.002+08:00

Financial reporting is starting once again. Today Jason just informed us that we have to come back during the next two weekends for work. Great start to the new year huh.

I realized that every time when I'm really bored and down, i tend to like looking for new blog templates to update my blog. I love my current one but its too dark, despite the beautiful green and blue. It suits my mood but i don't feel the hopefulness that I once gathered from the starry sky.

I wonder why am i writing all these trivia stuff when there are so many going ons in my mind. Its pushing for an outlet but there aren't any motivation to start of with. Whats the point of saying it out to a world of my own, where the walls dont do justice to the echos. Where what is being said isnt being said.
What do you gather from here?
Nothing.

2008-11-12T23:29:00.003+08:00

Rained.

Moments ago, i sat by my balcony eating longons... sentences started forming in my mind as if im writing my blog there and then.

The air is cold and crisp, the wind blow across my face and goose pimples started to appear on my arms. I realized I'm a lot luckier than the people around me..

Wrong.

I have always know this fact, but I was being reminded once again tonight over a conversation and I'm thank god for giving me many chances over these few months, to put in effort to spend more time at home. Im far from doing my best but I'll keep trying.

Thanks..
How much do i really want it? Darn a lot!

I'm progressing slowly and i know my rate is too slow but I will continue to be motivated.
I will.

Yes I will. Period.

2008-11-09T21:13:00.006+08:00

Romantic Escape...

One of the best experience i had have in Bali was my water rafting trip. Previously Ive mentioned that its one of the outdoor activities that I have always wanted to try but either didn't have a chance to (not available in Singapore, no company to go with) or simply I've no guts to get down to it. Oh and not to forget, the sun has always been my biggest enemy!
Curious to find out what are the other activities that I'm referring to above? Well one of it is bungee jumping.
... yes... for someone that has acrophobia, this is one activities that is placed at the extreme end of the scale.

Alright back to the topic of my water rafting trip; we were traveling down the Ayung river, it's surrounded by a spectacular tropical rain forest and a breathtaking waterfalls of Ubah. Along the 11 kilometre descent, it is filled with 25 class II and III rapids.
I sat at the back of the boat beside the guide, I think the back seat allows for a more adventurous ride, given that the guide was the person enabling the different stunts thus sitting beside him have made me experienced the impact of his actions. He displayed stunts such as the backward flow down the rapids and the spin (where the boat spin round and round down the river). I really enjoyed myself despite that i have gotten drenched half a dozen time. There was once when he directed us backward into the side of a hill and i fell over into the river from the impact. In the river, i lost gripped of one of my slipper and i was desperately trying to grab it in the rushing water instead of taking the safety precaution of lying flat with my feet facing the descending river flow. The water was cooling and to me it didn't felt like a failure to fall in, more so it was part of the package of an adventure.

We made a pit stop at the foot of the waterfall of Ubah. It a pity that my group didn't bring along a camera coz we were afraid that our camera will fall into the river and spoil it; which happened to one of our colleague's. But we managed to snap a few shots with another colleague's camera.
During the 15mins break, I walked to the foot of the waterfall and went under the gushing water; the feeling was so refreshing and the water was so cold.
I believe that everyone should try this once in their live. Amazing feeling.

To get to the whole point of this entry, on my journey down the river, we chanced upon this utopia villa Kupu Kupu Barong Villa. It hangs out at the top of the mountain of the luscious rain forest; the route to this villa is path by a hanging bridge of wooden planks. It was designed to embrace the nature attributes of the river valley. The guide has mentioned to us that this is one of Bali's top-notched villa that has housed many rich and famous like Mariah Carrey , Sting etc. I wish that I will have a chance in the future to escape to such a beautiful resort with a paranomic view of one of my favorite thing on earth, mother nature. Away from the city, where I can be encapsulated by beauty to its rawest state.
As pictures paints a thousand word and i could only do so in hundreds, I let the pictures blow you away instead.

The things that money can buy...
If you are interested to find out more about this place, impress your girl or simply want to see how reality hits you hard (the rates are crazy!), do check out this link http://www.kupubarongubud.com/ayung-river-pool-villa.php

Im gonna get down to my books...
Gd night weekend..

2008-11-04T22:14:00.001+08:00

I hate politics.

The one thing that keeps me here may very well be the thing that makes me leave.

2008-11-03T21:36:00.003+08:00

The Excitement is over

Came back from my Bali trip and everything is back to normal, work is piling up once again as the month end draws nearer. When will i get out of this job?

Two colleagues have left the department to join another, the Hedge team, its kind of like a lateral promotion for them but as i count the strength of my department, it is down to 9 people. Will it be a repeat of September 07 again? I entered the company in August 07 and when September came, from a total head count of 18 people, it dropped 6 people; the boss left along as well. I'm tired of this routine job despite the comfortable environment of working with a group of young and energetic colleagues; there are a chain of never ending activities to maximize our weekends to the fullest.
My dream seems further and further. I know i have no one to blame.

I don't know.
I'm scared that I will never know and I will always be like this.
I wish i could disappear like her, just put aside everything and go away for a while. But the conscious rational mind of mine knows that I need to be responsible for my choices and not make everyone else worry. Everyone except me shall not be burden with this.

Tomorrow is another day..

2008-10-24T00:28:00.009+08:00

...Weekend is here!

Finally I'm done with packing for my trip to Bali for the weekend. Tried. I took two nights to choose my outfits, iron them and pack it into my small luggage; both nights left me with a spinning headache.
I hope I can truly let go, relax and enjoy during this trip.

Disappointed with someone that I love.
You are just pushing away and shutting out those who care and are concern about you. Everyone goes through bad lanes and dirty laundry almost everyday, life isnt always a bed of roses but as quoted from Forrest Gump "life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you're gonna get.." and simply because of that, the only people that will stay and support you always are your family that cares and try their best to give you what you have ever wanted.

Communication is a very powerful tool that either break (miscommunication) or make (understanding) a relationship. Why cant everyone just try a lil effort everyday, to have the ones you love feel the warmth inside?

I love a long drive down the highway, with loud catchy music to sing with.
The feeling of being in control. To let go the load off your mind.

Try. Be at peace with yourself?

2008-10-16T21:19:00.002+08:00

A Lil' Comfort time..

Came home for dinner tonight and mum made one of my favorite dish, spicy butter prawns! Thanks mum and its yummy as usual, but I'm quite heaty these few days and my lips and throat is constantly dry, so the prawns tasted spicier than usual.

I'm currently doing a facial mask and looking through some awesome photos taken from various parts of the world, courtesy of Jac. She took many beautiful photos of architectures, of scenery and brought back some of the life of these places through the bustling streets of people. This kind of life looks so good that I have the urge to just take a plunge into it if I have the chance. Its simply amazing, in my opinion, to experience a little of each other's culture, to be a part of that world at that point in time. To be able to see something new every minute and have the rush of adrenaline flow through out your body; you just feel like you want to be captivated by more of its beauty so you can become a part of its heaven.

Soon...

Time to go wash off my mask...

I need to start reading up, I guess I cant keep slacking no matter how much I am enjoying this precious time that I have for myself after work at night.

Oh just a lil bit more before I end off... (In case you are wondering if my mood is happy today, its not.. I am just distracting myself so i wont be thinking about anything that possibly have had occupied my mind earlier in the day.) Anyway, I cant wait to go for my company trip to Bali next weekend!! I brought a new bikini on Tuesday when i met up with Phoebe for dinner after work. The Bikini is in white and green strips and the bottom is designed to be a lil ruffed up at the side. Cant wait to wear it during the trip!
Im going white water rafting! My raft have a total of 4 girls including me, there are Marian, Jess and Phelicia. I cant wait! I have always wanted to do something exciting like this and its finally coming! Whoo Hooooo!
I will also be having a complimentary spa whole body and shoulder treatment in the hotel after my rafting session; specially arranged so we can relax after a tiring day. I saw the pictures of the hotel room and it is pretty huge and its so luxurious and cozy, we will be staying the the Hayatt at Bali ( Im bunking together with Marian and Jess)...
How much should i bring over? hmm.. should decide really soon since the rest will be exchanging the currency next week.

I shall get down to reading and eating my pear now...

Weekend is coming.. be captivated by the beauty of lil things...

2008-10-15T22:05:00.003+08:00

Soul searching...

I didn't realize that there are still people coming back to my blog to check if there is any activity. Thanks peep whoever you are, whether you have left a tag or not, for patronising my blog that was one step closed to its termination.

First of all, I miss you Jac! You really ought to make it up to me when you are "free-er", which is actually not any time soon considering the fact that you are always on the go. Sigh! I miss our weekend chilling and clubbing sessions, not to mention the shopping hours. Maybe we will be able to do it next time *grin* *cross-fingers*
hah hopefully you got what i mean.. for those who don't, sorry its our 'dirty' little secret! Ssshh...

On another note >> Hi gg! Pardon me due to my aging and tired mind, please kindly identify yourself as I still couldn't figure out who you are after cracking my head in the shower. Haa thanks for your kind advice though.. I hope i will think simpler soon too.

Close to an hour ago, I stepped into my shower only to discover that the shower spray was sprinkling out a pathetic few threads of water. Immediately I got a bit irritated and decided to call my parents to check if there was some issue with the water pipes; I didn't want to shower half way and have the water supply cut off. So I tried calling my parents but both of them didn't picked up their phones and so I got really frustrated.
What happens next isn't important, but the point that I'm driving at is the flaws in my character.

I have been doing a bit of soul searching here and there and i have noticed that my level of tolerance and understanding has diminished over the months since I have taken up this job. My temper got from bad to worse and patience isn't exactly my best virtue as well. At one point, I actually thought that I should look into taking up some anger management course as well. Haa but of coz I know of a better way to improve on it and I'm slowly working towards it. I really need to develop on my communication skills so as not to drive everyone that I love and need away from me with my sarcasm and self-centeredness. Sorry to all of you who unfortunately have ended up in the wrong world side of my world to receive all the undeserved harshness.
God is the word.

A little soul searching a day makes the world a happier place to live in - jc-

2008-10-14T23:11:00.002+08:00

Truth is...

I've been in a MIA mode for quite some time already and I'm really growing comfortable in it. To varying extent, i stopped talking to people that I'm close to; I hardly reply their messages or make my best effort in keeping in touch over msn, facebook etc
I feel that I didnt want to engage myself much in/during social gatherings, and my responses are usually curt and reserved; its like I'm almost severing all possible hopes of a proper human conversation for myself and the rest of the world.
I'm losing myself and I don't know how it started and when it's going to stop.

Sometimes when I'm all by myself; when i travel to and for to work, when i sit by my working desk and wait for my reports to be printed or even whenever I sit there keying in all the entries, my mind wanders and i think about all the things that I want to do but didn't and/or couldn't.
At times, the urge of pulling out a paper and penning it down just so my mind doesn't surrender to the signs of aging "forgetfulness", my procrastinating demon took over. And I will comfort myself by saying that I will do it another day.
How many more days can we live on aimlessly before we realize that our bio-clock had been ticking and chances have had swing by and crossed our path and to never return?
Is there always a chance to do something if we have the will to?
Truth is... No.
It just stops there and when will we ever learn?

I'm so pessimistic and fatalistic and it is so contradictory because of my persistent nature to keeping fighting and trying, I still believe that the world is always a hopeful place for the determine heart.
Which goes back to the last sentence of the previous paragraph.

Tomorrow will be a better day.
Will You be there for me?

2008-10-12T22:59:00.004+08:00

Been absented for awhile from the 'blogging world'; caught up in many other actions of my life.. i wish i could allocate more time to doing what i want then spending about 70% of my last year buried in work.

When i entered into the working world i know that this phrase of my life would blurred out many other aspects of what the youths of today possessed but have often ignorantly left it behind.. un-cherished.
Growing up have never been easy but each experience played a part in shaping up who we are, and I am glad that He have put me through many tough times and still doing so ... however I'm exhausted from these walks; the search for a state of certainty or the chase into the opportunities of doing what can make me happy.
I'm not sure anymore.

I suddenly missed blogging and the activities that revolves around maintaining a blog i.e updating of a new blog skin, and so i went in search of one and chance upon this two that stir my heart a beat. I have decided on this one cause i love stars, the shades of co lour that was being applied to this one and the feminine yet dark floral graffiti that was found on top of the column.

Perhaps this will be the start of another phrase where I seek and find answers in 'speaking' out my thoughts.

Till then... find the Star that light up the path...

2008-04-17T22:54:00.001+08:00

Song lyrics | Stop And Stare lyrics

2008-03-31T21:45:00.001+08:00

我不配
　

這街上太擁擠　太多人有秘密
玻璃上有霧氣在被隱藏起過去
你臉上的情緒　在還原那場雨
這巷弄太過彎曲走不回故事裏

這日子不再綠　又斑駁了幾句　
剩下搬空回憶的我在大房子裏
電影院的座椅　隔遙遠的距離　
感情沒有對手戲你跟自己下棋

還來不及仔仔細細寫下你的關於
描述我如何愛你　你卻微笑的離我而去

■這感覺　已經不對　我努力在挽回
　一些些　應該體貼的感覺　我沒給
　你嘟嘴　許的願望很卑微　在妥協
　是我忽略　你不過要人陪

◆這感覺　已經不對　我最後才瞭解
　一頁頁　不忍翻閱的情節　你好累
　你默背　為我掉過幾次淚　多憔悴
　而我心碎你受罪　你的美　我不配

*teared*

Im .....

2008-02-17T21:26:00.003+08:00

I guess im not truly happy.

Maybe i did change the past six months; after stepping into the dog eat dog world,
where everyone is just protecting their own people, own job and doing what
they are paid to do.

My temper and patience has aggravated to the next level, and i realized that
im more skeptical now.

To a certain degree, im closing myself up for various reasons that i wish could do something about.

I dwell in my own tristesse and retrieve comforts from listening to certain songs on repeat,
which actually puts me deeper into my dark mood. I look at it* and feel sad at the things that i see but blame myself for how things has developed. My mind is screwed and my hands are tied.

Im lost in the sea of people where sadness lurks behind

2008-02-17T21:19:00.000+08:00

From LYRICSMODE.COM lyrics archive

Song lyrics | Far Away lyrics

Lyrics | Far Away lyrics

2008-02-17T01:53:00.003+08:00

蔡昮佑-我想要说

看着右手被撕裂的伤口
爱好像曾经停留
而我左手按下号码之后
那首属于我的歌不再播送
默写你的爱过
坦承自己脆弱
对白怎么说
表情才不难过

我想要说
我想要说
如果没有了你
我该如何往下走
那一秒钟有没有发现我
倔强里的问候
怎么劝我放手
在这一切之后

整夜的风冷得我手颤抖
你在温暖的那头
熟悉路口再一次的路过
等在那角落的人已不是我
在这一切

Watching the torn open wound on my right hand
Love seems already stopped flowing
yet after my left hand dialled the numbers
That song which belongs to me is no longer being played
The written memory of your past love
frankly made myself fragile
How must I explain it in our conversation
So there will be no sad feelings

I want to say
If there’s no you
In which direction must I go
At that second, did they found my
Greetings which I kept inside my stuborness
What can urge me to let go
all this part later

The cold midnight wind made my hand shiver
You’re in the warmth of that person
The relationship intersection was crossed once again
The person waiting at the corner is not me anymore
In all this part

2008-02-13T21:23:00.001+08:00

Tristesse ...

2008-02-10T14:51:00.000+08:00

As we move towards stepping into the quarter-life crisis phrase, I think there is a need to be more aware of how to be healthier and look more youthful. So after a good 10 hours of beauty sleep i dedicated my time in surfing for some anti aging products. And fortunately for all of us, i have chanced upon this site that list the top 10 anti-aging food

** http://www.womenfitness.net/anti_aging_food.htm**

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http://beauty-product-reviews.com/Skin_Care/anti-aging/index.htm **

** http://www.squidoo.com/facecream **

The last link seems relatively informative as its categories products appropriate for different age groups. However, a number of brands seem to be appearing quite often, thus it could be a biased opinion on these brands as well. Nevertheless, no harm reading up on the article.

Going back in search for my products...

P.S Our hands, elbows and knees will always tell our age! Moisturize them well.

2008-02-05T20:55:00.000+08:00

Im at this phrase of my life when i love to chill out at a cosy cafe with my close ones and listen to great live band music.

Love this song...

Song lyrics | Lips Of An Angel lyrics

2008-01-23T23:34:00.000+08:00

Heath Ledger died!
From a possible overdose of drugs.

One less hunk left in the world. He is a talented actor (not to mention good looks, dimpled smile and great bod!) and i really like him in 10 Things I Hate About You. I should really get down to
watching Brokeback Mountain. Seriously a pity to let drugs take control over the body, he was only 28.

Anyway on another note, I think Im turning into a shopping addict and all thanks to
Jacqueline Chow. hahaha..
Im so broke this month, can pay pay come any sooner?

The power of the mind. I need to stay Focus!

2008-01-19T01:01:00.000+08:00

I have been lost in the world of my own, oblivious of what has been happening to my friends
around me. At times, the thought of dropping them a message came across, but most of the time my mind was held captive by the monotonous working life. Im glad that i still managed to keep in contact, if not close relations with some of them.
It is sad how the reality of life plays out, we are jailed to invisible cage of the "working world"; and
most often we are doing things that we draw no passion from and the work takes up so much of our time and energy that we have no time to walk towards what we really want. And some thinks that when we start working, with the miserable pay that we earned, we can finally do the things that we want.
Irony.
How many times do we have to compromise with the other end of the weighing scale?

It is natural to reminisce about the past and feel sad about it?
What does these feelings imply?
It is natural to feel this way for a period of time?
how long will it last? what does it say?

.......

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2008-01-14T00:51:00.000+08:00

The month of January is a busy time for me,
I have been working everyday including the weekends (sat and sun) for the last two weeks.
And with everyone's help, we could have one day rest today before the week starts
again tomorrow. It is the time for RAP7 (Reporting of Annual Performance) for the individual
funds. Had to stay late till around 10 to finish up the work but that inst really the case all
the time too.

Im so broke for this month. Christmas presents, birthdays and not to forget the necessary
shopping therapy! I just brought two dresses for CNY; coz i know I probably wouldn't have the
time to shop around until the start of feb. Been so tired, and I slept till 1plus this afternoon and nap again for 2hours plus before dinner. Feel so refresh after this.

Yesterday I met up with the SIm babes to celebrate Cari's birthday at Vivocity.
We had dinner at Hog's Breath cafe and headed over to Bar Cuisine at St James for drinks. I miss the babes so much, a pity that Marian and Evelyn couldn't join us.
We all wore red/ pink yesterday coz Cari has requested for it. Poor babe, she has fallen ill for the last 10days and was so afraid that she couldn't celebrate her birthday. Red was suppose to
bring her and everyone else better luck! I suppose i need some luck myself too!
But at the end of the night, she felt faint again; probably due to the alcohol and also that she has just recovered. Hope she is feeling better now.

Its been a long night...
Marian's joining me tomorrow at my work place!

Will update more soon...

2008-01-06T20:07:00.000+08:00

Im back!

After a long absence, I have decided to start blogging again after a friend mentioned
that my blog has been banished to just another site on the net.

Chanced upon this personality quiz from Jac's blog.
Love quizes!
Especially those that reads more about who I am.
Anyway here goes...

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Interesting...

2007-11-13T21:20:00.000+08:00

Work is getting a lil' better with the migration of the Prudential funds. Still the nightmare of RAP7
is looming closer with every passing day. How bad can a year end financial reporting be to
have "chased" away many talented minds?

Just came back on a tiring company trip to HK over the weekend. It was very rushed,
didnt have much time to go many places, whats more to even shop properly. Finally i have made a trip down to Lan Gui Fang, on both nights. The people *guys* are really friendly there, but
thankfully Phelicia came to my rescue; she hearts the whites, especially this German guy that know how to speak chinese- that didn't impress me much.
On the second day, i nearly brought a Fendi bag; was so close to saying "i'll get it", the words was at the back of my thoat but i didnt get it in the end. Resisted the temptation of an impulsive act.
I still thinks its nice but perhaps I shall look around Gucci again.

I'm in a world of my own,
just leave me alone...

Retreating to my own solace world of thoughts.
Ignorant of the right thing to do and think
just want to 'smoke' 'it' away...
'it'...
Dont even know how to categorizes my emotions.

I sit quietly by my toilet window and feels my pulse beating,
blood draining to every inch of my body.
But my shadow stands by the door and sees my lifeless body,
souls escaping to a world where the clock is turned back to episodes of my life,
and everything remains in utopia.

Torn between the thin line that separates bliss and sadness...

2007-10-08T22:02:00.000+08:00

Chee Shiau Hui

The meaning of my name...

With an altruistic and crusading spirit you desire to make the world a better place for everyone. You are generous, sympathetic and always prepared to give help when it is required. Although you feel things deeply your strength and well balanced emotions allow you to remain objective. You have a creative and intuitive mind which may find an outlet through art. You are loved by all for your selfless nature and inspirational character.

2007-10-07T14:33:00.000+08:00

Work has been horrible starting October. Many colleagues left for better opportunities;
the rest of us were piled up with the remaining workload, together with incompetent handing over of the funds. Lots of problems trying to get everything back on track. Stayed till late at night during the week, but i sneaked off early on friday.

Been too busy to think much about issues, considering the fact that i hardly had time to have a proper meal or to go toilet. Finally i have gotten to experience the psychological state when
someone is silently screaming from within. It was so stressed with the tight cut off time and uncertainty of how to even solve the situation, i nearly broke down on the first day. I think I'm better than that, after having to gone through worst situations.

Torn between ABC...
Just something that pops up while i was stoning, with the music in the background.

Why do i kept getting back to a situation when Im at the "begging" end of the bargain?
Not because i have invested more emotions but i realized that the counter party happens to fall into the same category in terms of characteristics.

The next question is ... Did I bring it on to myself?
The way my personality and character is wired, perhaps i think too much into the unknown.
The Unknown.. its not something that can be prevented by considering all factors and attaching "preventions" to it.
But if otherwise, how can one step into a lake without knowing the depth of it and how its gonna survive it? or walk into a dark tunnel without preparing what he might face during his journey into the light?

Contradictions is my middle name.

2007-09-22T21:53:00.000+08:00

Started working a month plus back.
A good training ground for graduates like me and the company has pretty good employee welfare as well. However, there is always a down side to a beautiful story; the workload is bad, it is a very fast-paced environment, i would say for someone that has little hands-on and practical knowledge, it is quite stressful.

Quite a few things has been happening the past one month in the absence of my usual blog updates. I'm not going into details as there are just simply too much emotional thoughts in concern.

Someone once said this to me..
Sometimes love just ain't enough
I couldn't understand it fully then but at this cross road now, i feel that it is partially true. The idealistic part of me insists that love makes all things possible, while practicality sets in and knocks that thought out of me; humans has too many expectations.

Too many thoughts running in my mind, and the voice inside of me is not shouting loud enough.

Indecisiveness makes things complicated.

I'm too afraid.

2007-08-27T21:54:00.000+08:00

I need loud music to distract me from my thoughts...

People who know me well enough will know that i listen to really loud music when
there are a lot on my mind.

I want to ...........
how long will i be in this ............

2007-08-25T22:19:00.000+08:00

Constantly feeling exhausted...
Work and stuff has been keeping me occupied and sucking the energy out of me.
I do enjoy it though and the week past by too quickly.

I just got my first pay and i have been spending quite a bit too. Oops
I need to watch my expenses.
Brought a bag online and it was delivered to me within 5days; online shopping seems so much
risk-less with such reliable seller around.
Finally i found some time to spend with my mum; we went shopping today in the afternoon
and talked quite a bit. She was helping me in my finds for a pencil-line white skirt; sadly i still
didn't manage to get any white skirt. In fact i actually saw one that i thought was pretty nice (the material, the cutting and design etc), but it didn't have the size that I wanted and it only has 2 outlets in Singapore and takes 1 month to arrive if i order it now. I was looking for something to wear for the convocation ceremony on friday.
So in the end i brought a brown one at Fountain... and also 2 pairs of shoes from Mondo.

I still have the urge to shop! The syndrome of working ladies... me

2007-08-15T00:10:00.000+08:00

I waited. Waited. And waited.
Still, you didn't come.

2007-08-14T21:56:00.000+08:00

I have lots of pictures to upload but no one has sent them to me yet!
Yes, I'm talking about You!
Haha.. Hildra and Evien babes! Please send them to me so i can upload them ya,
public announcement: You can send them to my hotmail if you don't see me online
or via yousendit.com!
Soon.. Thanks!

Started work this week and it is still bearable; though I'm not really used to the periods when
I'm left alone with nothing much to do but to re-read the notes given to me (which I have read
it over like a zillion times...). I mean it requires more hand-on practices rather than knowing and memorizing the theories. But I think more work is coming my way as that was what I have been told by my head and this colleague who sat beside me.
I need to start making "connections" with them, if not I'm gonna be a loner there too. Haha...
Treasuring my after work evening hours more now; though I must keep in mind my ultimate goal and recite it over and over again so I will not procrastinate on it!

I must do it. I have to do it. I can do it!

I have been listening to some chinese songs recently and I think this one by Gary Cao
"Stranded in the middle - Shi Jie Wei Yi De Ni" is very sweet and beautiful. Listen to the lyrics and you will understand. Im a sucker for love songs like these...
Enjoy...

There goes my night...
I listen to the ticking of the clock, as the seconds slips away I realized I'm alone
once again...

2007-08-09T23:24:00.000+08:00

I was working on National Day!
Sad I know, but oh well thanks to my forgetful mind.

I nearly missed the fireworks *the crucial moment of the parade*
but i rushed out of the gallery and walked towards esplanade. Didnt make it there as
every inch of cityhall was packed with people. I stood by the road opposite of the padang
and I caught the fireworks with a huge tree infront of me blocking part of the beautiful image.
It was captivating.

I love watching fireworks, every ejection of the fireworks brings about much anticipation of
the pattern it will display, the colours and how long it will last in the sky.
At that moment, I concluded that all beautiful things and events in this world are short-lived.
Happiness, sweet moments of a relationship, time, a kiss, a smile etc

I think of all the happy times i have experienced and realized that
i can never bring any of them back. There is only so much that I can do to make it better,
but after all all relationships between people requires two hands to clap.
There are always moments of my life when I will think about all these and feel nostalgic, as well
as sad that theres nothing I can do or even if i do, it will never be the same.
Theres an aching pain inside that I cant explain...

2007-08-05T19:31:00.000+08:00

A few photo updates from last Wednesday's outing...

Met up with Gavin, Mel and Hildra for dinner at Xin Wang Hong Kong cafe before heading to Dempsy Hill for dessert and drinks. Dempsy Hill is somewhere near Tanglin and its located inside some secluded lanes, but that place comes alive at night with some cafes, chill out zones for drinks and music and even Ben & Jerry ice cream place! They even have this Korean BBQ place that I'm sure baby will love to try out, will bring you there ya dar!
We waited for Parry till 11ish before he showed up but it was nice catching up with him.

He introduced me this salsa place and I think I want to pick the dance up. Haha
so many things that I want to learn and have to learn right now.

At Ben & Jerry's ...

At Angel Share... My fat legs...
But comfy hanging chair .. Wwweeee

Hildra... Send me your side of the photos soon k! Hardly see you online!
*Grin*

2007-07-31T20:40:00.000+08:00

Today a package came for me; something that I have been waiting for
since last week! Thank god it didn't get lost in mail.
It was my surprise gift from baby for our 2nd Anniversary.
I got him a Crumpler laptop bag "The Considerable Embarrassment"
(don't know why they call it that); its actually really nice, brown and oatmeal color.
Dar's bag was getting worn and dirty and knowing him, he wont get it for a wash thus i got
him a bag which he can bring around with and can carry his laptop in. When we go for holiday next time, he can use it and carry more stuff as well. Also, I made him a photo collage of some of my favorite photos that we took during our last trip.

And this is what Baby has gotten for me; an Ipod Shuffle in my favorite color,
and inside has a list of specially chosen songs capturing beautiful meanings that he has picked for me! It has a clip at the back, which allows the user to clip onto something when carrying out; like while running or shopping and it is really light!
Thanks dar, I love it a lot and am really touched when I listen to the songs.
Actions really speak louder than words.

An up close image

Feeling unwell today, got bad cough and sore throat yesterday night.
Today when I woke up, i got a bit feverish and cold... I hate the feeling of having fever or cold;
the body gets so hot, the head gets heavy and the nose keeps dripping.
Sad.

Feel like shopping... oh why am i so poor now..
Sigh.

2007-07-30T18:14:00.000+08:00

Here are some of the beautiful sceneries that I have taken during my trip ...

First of, on the way and at Mount Buller

Along the way... Look how sunny and hot the weather was.

Meal time's over for the sheeps

Bottom of Mt Buller

Amazing view of the winter trees

Next, featuring Doorangan North Brother Look Out

The other side of the look out...

More updates coming up...

2007-07-29T13:49:00.000+08:00

I should enjoy my freedom as much as I can now before my job starts kicking in.
Oh but when will I get a job?
*Prayer*

But what do I do everyday?
Its really nothing interesting, not enough to cite up someone who asked me during dinner
what are the exciting things that have been happening in my life.
I ponder for quite a while before coming up with the usual phrase, "Oh its the same."
Sleep. Wake Up. Online. Eat. Shows. Send Resumes.

Is this how the scenes of my life is going start rolling when the movie of Jessica starts?
Bleah. Sometimes I feel that there wasn't enough time, throughout the day when suddenly you have the urge of doing a certain something, and you realized that its too late to do so at that part of the day and you will push it off to another day. Without realizing that time is slipping through my fingers with every second that Im typing this out.
I have been watching Sex and The City online; funny and interesting show and really sexual. No wonder they don't air it in Singapore. But I got this phrase from one of the episodes that reminds me once again that we should "Live in the Moment" and not be disturbed/anxious by our uncertain/imperfect future that we have blindly constructed in our minds.

So thats what i did yesterday when I met up with Evien for dinner and drinks.
We went to the Cannery; Pump room for a light dinner of

Seafood Linguine

and later on proceeded to this Moroccan Shesha place for drinks. We both like the ambiance inside, its has an Arabian styled interior with Palancey structures and walls, rocking benches attached by ropes from the ceiling down and comfortable pillows. We chose this cubicle at the corner of the entrance; its like a small compartment of a train when we can have privacy all to ourselves as it cuts off attention from the other customers.

And as usual, our world of photo taking starts at this "magical cubicle" ride...

Hearts the star and moon cushion

We made funny faces and said crappy mean jokes
for a fit of laughter

And cheers to the friendship...

2007-07-28T17:38:00.000+08:00

Hate the feeling of uncertainty; it just plummet one's self-confidence down a few notches.

Decided to update on Kaini's bdae celebration in an effort to distract myself.
We went to Sakae Sushi for dinner yesterday; everywhere else was crowded and crawling
with long queues. After which we took a visit down at Borders and Jac, Kai and me brought
a book each with the 3 for 2 promotion!
I got this book " I Love You But I'm Not In Love with You" by Andrew G Marshall.
Few weeks back i already saw this book and I thought that this is a phenomena that many couple faces ( Nope, I'm not one of them) and I think it would be a really interesting book to
read up on so that i can better understand this issue and *touch wood* avoid any signs of it from happening in my relationship.

We walked down to Acid Bar to chill out and cut the cake. The place was noisy and we couldn't talk much but we took alot of photos! * Gawd*
Now i know how you feel Kerlin during Jac's bdae!
We got Kaini a nice set of jewelery; both Gai and me picked out the gift. Its a set of crystal heart-shaped earring and a bling bling crystal heart-shaped necklace.

Let the pictures paint the thousand words...

Grown ups playing with food;
"J" for Jac & Jess

Jac Jess

J for Jessica

Alot more photos but simply too many to upload on Blogger...

Next outing will be Silvia's bdae...

2007-07-28T12:39:00.000+08:00

The week has been raining almost daily...
Such gloomy weather in my mundane life.

Though some activities did take place over the week; it was CJC Performing Art Center
open house on Thursday and Kaini's Bdae celebration on Friday night.

The council got the tickets to go back to CJC for the PAC open house and concert. Many areas of the school has been renovated; the gym was shifted over to the track area, opening out more tables in the canteen. The PAC was located just beside the track and a big open area in front of it created a gathering place for the students. The council room was shifted up to one of the room beside the assembly foyer and the old SC room was changed into the PE store room.
Bro Paul is thinking of building an overhead shelter across the area at the 2nd level open space near the classrooms. The school is changing and improving; the opening of the PAC actually created an opportunity to cultivate talents and identify them through performance. The best performance for the night was the CJ dance team. They have won a gold medal for the SYF 2007 with their "Firefly" dance. It was fantastic! The song chosen perfectly fits the theme "Firefly"; the struggle for life and the celebration of survival.

Also the next big news was that CJC ranking is currently at 5th or 6th position among all the JCs. Bro Paul is intending to push the entry point down to 10-10 for both Science and Art stream! The entry point is now at 11-12!
Im really proud of my JC and grateful of the work that Bro Paul has achieved all these years.

After the concert, the whole group of us proceed over to Newton Circle for supper. It was an enjoyable gathering and we will soon be meeting up again next Saturday at Dod's place.
P.S The guys never change... Oh well...

Some pictures taken...

Infront of the old council room

In front of the PAC ...

Mel & Me

Evien & Me

WeiLee, Mel, Me and Evien

The new Student Council room

Where we belong

Where our duties start
The left flagpole belongs to me.. Haha
I'm the Sg flag raiser!

New pond area with a Mother Mary statue;
beside the canteen

Mel, Merling and Me

Kaini's bdae celebration and photos will be updated at a later date...

2007-07-24T18:00:00.000+08:00

Its been awhile since i have last updated my blog.
A whole list of events..
I was finishing up on watching my Korean drama "Jia Yu Jin Shun"; and had
finally finished it early this morning. Nice but draggy!

Met up with Evien on sat afternoon for a short catch up cum tea session.
It was enjoyable and has definitely stirred up some reminiscence feelings and thoughts of
the countless occasions in the past. Hopefully will be meeting up with her soon again,
as there are a lot more catching up to be done.

Some photos...our official favorite activities >> Cam whoring..

A new section opened at Suntec: Another beautiful Fountain

Trying to capture the fountain behind

Fancy having a manicure while waiting for tea

Using some weird mode on my cammy...
We were at each others neck

Love it! The serpia tone for the jaded effect

Went for Jac's bdae dinner after that at Brewerks! Finally Evelyn made her guest entrance after missing out on many previous outings! Eat more girl! Brought a nice Raoul leather cardholder for Jac and she says she love it! Haa must use k babe and hopefully all goes well for u during all the tests! We stayed on for beers and chit chat after the dinner ... not for long as we only managed to get a table close to 9pm. But glad we will be meeting up soon again on Friday for Kaini's bdae dinner. So many birthday celebration this month, Im so broke!

And yeah tmr will be my 2nd year Anniversary with baby!
So happy! Hee..
Please wait patiently for your mystery gift to arrive and hopefully
you will like it!
Muackz!

Best place of interest during the Road Trip; Mount Buller

2007-07-17T20:42:00.000+08:00

Frustrated

Shouldn't let it put me down, but would have been great to have you comforting me.

Suddenly it seems that there are quite a few things waiting for my attention.
Running out of time. Weird, as it seems when im supposed to be slacking at home now.

Met up with the NYP girls yesterday; Ginny had to leave earlier as it was her
10th month with her dear. Would be more enjoyable if we went fr dessert together; theres
always another time and im in need of company.

Esther misplaced her hp yet again yesterday; she only noticed it after we had our dessert
at P.S Gelare. We all got a scare when she said that she had left it in the toilet of Paragon.
We hurriedly left and flag for a cab to head back to Paragon. HT went to the information counter to check on lost items while both me and Esther went over to the toilet. Initially, i checked on the cubicles and didnt find any hp, was panicking but Esther managed to found her hp in the
genitor cubicle; her hp was hidden away in a plastic bag. She was holding on to my hp, using it to call for her hp; during the search she heard her hp ringtone, which led her to the genitor cubicle.
She had lost her hp twice the last time round and this time we must be her lucky stars, for her to be able to retrieve back her handphone. If she has noticed it later, we might not have got to Paragon in time to find the hp, as the cleaning lady probably has left for her shift.
Must really get her a chain next year during her birthday! Haha

Raw salmon with egg

Ginny and her fav noodle dip

Huiting and her cute hairstyle

Hows my new mod hairstyle?

Esther and her chilled soba with tempura

Hope everything goes well tmr...

2007-07-15T19:55:00.000+08:00

Watched Harry Potter on Friday night when i met up with Xinloo & Ruiling.
This episode wasn't as nice as the previous few; it was more serious
and there were much fewer scenes that are school related. Some characters have changed as
well, such as Ron Weasley; this time round he wasn't as humorous and child-liked, in fact there
were only one scene where he made the audiences laugh.
Overall, i gave it 3 stars.
Have yet to get the last book of H.P to read, guess i will borrow it from someone much later.

Crystal Jade La Mian Restuarant

Yesterday met up with Mel and went shopping at Far East (again..).
My feet was seriously aching by the end of the day and I was trying not to bite my lips in pain.
Searching around for mel's ribbon earrings and head band. Finally after running around the
whole place, she have decided to get the one at Princessa. The shop sells really nice and reasonable priced blingblings. I saw this silverish black crystals head band that i like so much, and its exactly what i was searching for but its at $59.90, though with 10%!
Maybe after i have started working, i might just get it..haha yeah right...

In the end, i brought this 2 bands head band at another shop, something that i was looking for but i still prefer the ones with crystals. Oh well... when will money start coming in! Bleah!

Wearing my new head band. Nice?

Hai...
I'm watching this korean drama called "Jia you, Jin Soon".
Pretty nice show but its over 100 + episodes, now my bum really hurts after sitting in front of
my computer for hours - everyday!

Hope everything goes smoothly! *cross-fingers*

Miss my baby... Sigh

2007-07-12T17:37:00.000+08:00

Been going out the past few nights.
Met up with the babes for dinner on Saturday; we went town for dinner
and met up with a few others for drinks at The Cannery.
Went to Cuba Libre for drinks; the place is nice and i love those music they play, salsa music
and i have the urge to pick up salsa dancing yet again.

Monday was mummy's bdae,
so i stayed home to accompany her.
And I met up with Gavin and Mel for dinner at bugis on Tuesday. We went
a whole lot of places and its good to have a car! Hee i want a car so much at this point of time.
We went to eat at this dessert place at the back of bugis near Can cafe before heading down to
Tea Party at Bukit Timah for tea.
Gavin's favorite pastime after dinner (though used to be coffee).
We took alot of funny and candid photos... hah it was fun!

Watched Transformers with Hildra yest. It was good! Really nice show with
all the amazing graphics! Though to imagine being in that situations is pretty scary, seeing
a car transform alive.

Going out soon to meet the babes again for dinner as this time round Marian
and Silvia will be joining us.

Actually I'm feeling a bit down today after talking to a friend. I feel like there will be more disappointments coming my way and im thinking if i deserve all that after
so long. I admit that it takes very little things to make me sad, despite many other things
that might have cheered me up. Why do i weigh sadness much much more than the same amount of happiness. It beats me.

My friend was just talking about what bouquet should he get for his gf during her convocation.
Which led me to think of another friend's convocation when her bf got her a really big bouquet of flowers too. Its not that im materialistic, but it must feel really good to have
the special someone there for my convocation and to receive a really nice bouquet from him too.
It must feel like im one of the luckiest person to be able to enjoy that moment with him.

Needless to say... i can only imagine that coming august...
which is why i feel and know that disappointments will be coming; though he couldn't help
that much but something can be done, but will he make the effort?

2007-07-06T15:59:00.000+08:00

Back to the hot & sunny island...
Sad.
I'm missing him...
the counting down starts again... 4 months
*depressed*

The day passes by slowly today, unlike in Brisbane the day was so short
and night falls soon after.
If i can have unlimited supply of memory card,
I will snap every seconds of our life together so that every moments can be captured and remembered. So that I can run the photos and watch the movie of us; then perhaps i wont miss you that much.

Anyway, there are lots of photos to post up especially those taken during the 9 days of
road trip. We traveled with 11 others from Brisbane to ...

Port Mackerie
...
Hunter Valley
...
Blue Mountain (Sydney)
...
Jenolan Caves
...
Sydney
...
Pass Canberra
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Mount Buller (Melbourne)
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Melbourne
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Apollo Bay (Great Ocean Road)
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Last stop at Melbourne

Our journey started at 12am on 27th, driving overnight and arriving at Port Mackerie
in the morning. Ate breakfast there and went for a short sightseeing tour around the town before heading down to Hunter Valley to get some nice cheap wines.

After which we continue traveling south towards Blue Mountain and only managed to checked in at 10 plus at the YHA backpackers (4stars!! The best of all backpackers so far!).
Stayed over only for the night; went to see the Three Sisters and Jenolan Caves (limestone Caves) the very next morning. Blue Mountain was a beautiful town, really love the place; the weather was cold and foggy but the central was bustling with life at the cafes and shops.

Left the caves at 5plus after a cave tour that took an hour. We quickly made our way to Sydney and had a terrible time finding the direction to our backpackers as half the roads at Sydney prevent drivers from making right turns. Also, the backpackers was located deep inside the road with a small banner far from obscure eyes and the place was poorly lit.

Despite arriving at ungodly hours, i still managed to meet up with Johanna at 12ish; we went over to the Pancake House at The Rock with some of the guys.
The next day, we toured around Sydney doing some shopping while the rest visited the Harbour Bridge and Opera House.
We moved off from Sydney YHA at 3am that morning and headed towards Mount Buller.
It was a long drive but we managed to reach Buller at close to 2pm. We rented snow boots and wheel chains for the cars in case the car skid off during the drive if it snows heavily. We didnt use the wheel chains in the end.
We had a great hell of a time at Mt Buller, its my first time seeing snow so it was really incredible and beautiful. As we went higher up, the place started snowing gently; we took the chair lift up to the peak of Mount Buller and had specks of snow hitting against our face. It was really painful but fun, as our legs are dangling in midair as we travel up. Surprisingly i wasn't afirad of the heights while taking the chair lift, I guess i was too cold and numb to feel the butterflies in my tummy.
Unfortunately, we didn't have enough time to ski and had to leave shortly after that.
We grab a quick dinner and drive all the way to Melbourne. We stayed at Urban Central (Dont go there, it has pretty sucky customer service) for one night before checking out the next day to drive to Apollo Bay.
Apollo bay is along the Great Ocean Road but we didnt have enough time to finish the 12 Apostles and the rest of the attraction sites for the day. Instead, we went to explore the Otway National Park. The most awesome and beautiful backpackers that i have stayed at during the trip is at Apollo Bay's Eco YHA beach house.
The place doesn't even look like a backpackers from the outside; it looks like a semi-detached house, with a big kitchen facing the road. It has a cosy and comfortable fireplace/living room
and a separate large room to watch tv on the other wing.
The toilets are equipped with music systems that plays soothing music when someone is inside, and they provide sweet-smelling flavored hand wash soup for every toilet. A pity that we were only staying there for the night.
Anywae, we went to the nearest supermarket to shop for groceries as we decided to stay in and cook dinner. There was a total of 3 cars for the trip and every car will come up with 2 dishes to prepare for dinner. I came up with a dish of iceberg lettuces and omelette eggs with onions for my car.
The preparation of dinner told us 2 hours and we only managed to settle down to eat at around 915pm.

The next day we left early in the morning at 8am for our Ocean Road trip, and initially we wanted to head down to MacKenzie Fall at Gampian National Park (which Andrew & I have visited during the last trip) but by the time we finish off with all the sight seeing, it was too late to head down, we headed back to Melbourne instead.

Melbourne was the last stop for the road trip, we stayed there for another 2 nights.
Went to Crown Casino on both nights and did some shopping during the day; however alot of time was wasted on traveling to Smith Street etc, most of us just stayed in the city or at the DFO for shopping. There was absolutely not enough time to shop.

Taken up at Mount Buller

Random pictures taken during the trip

Will upload more photos soon...

I wanted to extend my stay in Aust for another few weeks, however it was too late as there wasn't anymore seats left on the flight back until after end August.
*Sigh*

Really want to spend our 2nd year together..once again it wont happen...
If only it meant something to you...

2007-06-20T14:08:00.000+08:00

The afternoon temperature drops to 12 degrees.
Brrr....

Anyway, here's another post of pictures...
I took a stroll in the Brisbane Botanical Garden two days back and
experimented on my photography skills.
Captured a few nice places and some beautiful flowers, while waiting for his last paper to
pens down.

Ok to start off...

me wearing my pink bubble-sleeved top.

And the pictures from my stroll...

Memorial Park @ back of South Bank

beautiful church

benches at Good Will Bridge;
a good place to sit and think

I like this big spreading branches tree

the signs of winter

white daisy with purple bud?

Couldn't resist a narcissistic moment

Looks periwinkle to me

Trying to be artistic

Birds of Paradise;
didn't expect to see it here

My favourite of the lot

The garden used to have many more beautiful flowers but
they were summer flowers ...

Attended a farewell dinner for one of his friend's last night at this
Turkish restaurant that was located few minutes walk from his apartment.
The ambiance was great but i prefer Mado's food.

Will be uploading the photos taken during the dinner in the next post.
In the mean time...
this is a sneak...
Haha... another of my picture with him.

Convocation on the 31st August...

2007-06-18T06:56:00.001+08:00

I have finally gotten my hands on the chalet photos from Cari!

Thanks Babe for sending it to me...

So here's a belated update on what went on during the 3days 2nights getaway at
Downtown East Loyang chalet ...

Day 1
upon arrival...

The 4 earliest babes ...
Lt to Rt: Marian, Me, Silvia and Carissa

Indulging in the game of Uno,
while waiting for the rest of the girls ...
*fake candid shot 1*

Proceeded on to Dai dee...
While Sil & Cari watched the tv...
*fake candid shot 2*

Dinner at Sakae ...
Table 1
"We are strong"
Lt to Rt: Sil, Kaini, Ceci and me

Table 2:
"Pretty poses"
Lt to Rt: Jac, Gai, Marian and Cari

Day 2:
in the morning ...

While waiting for Sil and Jac to get prepared...

Ready to go for breakfast & groceries shopping for
the bbq in the evening...

After Breakfast...

Our preparation for bbq...

The slackers that escape carrying the groceries back...
Banished to Juice Juice Land...

While waiting for the chicken to defrost,
we watched the
Night in the Museum...

*fake candid shot 3*

Mike & Cari...

The start of preparation for the bbq...

Me pulling out the layer of fats
while Jac was the one cutting of the tiny gobules
of fats remaining...

Join forces during preparation...

During the bbq ...
Front Lt to Rt: Elias, Gai, Jac, Evelyn, Sil and Huda
Back Lt to Rt: Chris's gf, Chris, me, Marian and Ceci

Busy cooking...
while the rest comes for food...

Group photo ...

In the room, escaping the pit...

Celebrating Kerlin's bdae...
Lucky him, surrounded by all the girls...

That's his trick?!!
White nose raindeer!! Bleah...

Our late night activity,
MJ!!!

That's all folks...
Till then...

2007-06-16T08:48:00.001+08:00

Thursday at Harbourtown was fun, though i didn't get much stuff
for myself. I was playing half a fashion consultant for Chung Yi and Therese and
shopping for gifts.

The group for the day ...
(a lousy attempt of photo whoring, but the best out of 3pics)

Left to right: Chung Yi, Me and Therese

We missed two train rides to Helenvales but CY managed to settled some
housing matters before embarking on the trip care-freely.
We chatted about some interesting topics on the ride there; about our
previous schools, ccas, mutual friends that we might have ...
It was enjoyable ...

Ate lunch at Macs before starting our shopping...
For this trip, i've only gotten myself a nice loud pink top with huge bubbled sleeve at
Cotton On and a grayish silver clutch bag at a steal! For A$10 and A$9 respectively!

It looks really nice and can be used for clubbing or as an evening bag for dinner.

Side tracking a bit ... this turquoise bag is my latest conquer before the trip.
From SportGirl, it was at a discount and I had been contemplating on getting it
for a few weeks, during my search for a nice bag.

Its so retro yeah? Nice?

Anywae back to my shopping paradise, i saw this two rip curl bikini; it was really nice and
a bargain. A set at $20!! one is white color with some green and blue prints and the other is a pink one with pinkish orangery graffiti print on it. Really nice but i didn't get it and now im kinda regretting. Then again, how often will i use it? not much i guess...

Next, i saw this pair of shades at Fossil having 60%; its big, black and has diamond jewels at the sides. Reallyy nice and loud! Wanted to get it but decided that i shall really cut down on my spendings as I have spent close to a$140 on gifts from Polo Ralph for my dad, his mum and a t shirt for him.
Hopefully that black shirt will fit my dad nicely! Its Father's Day tomorrow!

And i saw a few nice flats as well, but i didn't want to get anymore flats.
Perhaps i will see some nice heels or pumps in Melbourne!

The biggest damage done for the day was by CY. He got a pair of grayish yellow jeans at $99 after a discount. It looks great on him and really funky!
He got a pair of aviator shades and belt from Fossil and this long-sleeved v-neck knit top to match the jeans.
Glad I helped in his consultation! Really fun, coz both me and Therese was picking out tops that might match his jeans and he was constantly trying it out for us to see.

As for Therese, CY and I was running from place to place for her to try on her
pinafold, crop jacket and in search for her Country Road wallet. In the end, she didn't get any of the three.

We headed back late and had drinks at this place near the apartment after dinner.
The beers were really cheap and they have a lot of variety!
I had the Toohey extra dry while Therese had the Strong "Something" cidar that tasted a little like apple beer. Nice!
Feel like grabbing home some later for the night.
Jac, you will love it here man, we can chill and drink bottles away at such a cheap rate!
Haha ...

Dar's last paper is coming up on Monday and after that we have to go in search for houses
as he will be shifting. Hopefully there will be some time left when we can go out and enjoy
and have some nice time alone.

2007-06-13T09:19:00.000+08:00

Went Harbourtown on Sunday with the girls...
Left early in the morning at 9 plus and came home 12 hours later...

There were new shops there and everywhere seems to have good bargains.
I brought quite a bit of stuff and the total damage for the day was A$113.
Reached there about 12 and we had lunch at Nandos; yummy chicken thighs and fries.
Oh and Zoe accidentally poured coke over my fries. Haha, but it was alright as i was already feeling full by then.
The girls were crazy shopaholic, they practically could something in every shop that they went into.
I brought a shimmering green halter/tube, a translucent turquoise flowy top from Jeans West, a thick green JayJay pullover for baby (the weather is dropping to 7 degrees at night!), a Portman shirt for my sis, quite abit of accessories from there as well and a pink bonnie beret from Cotton On!
Everything was pretty good bargains, the Jeans West top was supposed to be $19.99; but when i was at the counter, there was a further discount to $9.99!!! The bonnie beret was selling at approximately $16 and above everywhere else but at Cotton On, it was selling at only $8!! And the top that i got for my sis, it was the best bargain, it selling at 1/3 the original price!

It was really an enjoyable shopping trip, and i will be going again tomorrow with Therese and her friend. Should be getting something for my dad and his parents from over there. I really need to limit my spendings for my road trip but its such good discount!
Hard to miss it!

Anyone wants to sponsor me for this shopping trip?
Haha...

Wearing my pink bonnie beret ...

I finally got a chance to read the book "Tuesday with Morrie"; a true story
that talks about how Morrie lived his last few months of life by looking at things and issues with a different perspective as before he contacted ALS (Amyotropic Lateral Sclerosis). The book
also brings out the different values of life from family, to marriage, death, loving yourself and others, forgiveness etc.
It is a good book for an evening.

"Don't let go too soon, don't hang on too long"

2007-06-09T18:08:00.000+08:00

I've finished reading my second trashy novel, and I'm feeling bored.
Thankfully, there have been some interesting movies on tv the past few nights for entertainment.
Feeling quite satisfied that I have found some time to catch up on
my random reading.

Stayed home the past two days as the weather was turning cold, even in the afternoon;
strong gusty wind, blowing against my face and numbing my finger tips.
Feel like investing in a knit cap, but its pretty expensive and baby's apartment rental will be rising,
and he kept emphasizing on the need to save. *Sigh*
Its kinda hard when the whole city is putting up huge discount signboards!

Wanted to get some fish at the Lifestyle market this morning but i think i woke up
too late and it probably sold all and took off before i even reached the location.
Then i decided to try my luck at the flea market at Eagle Street, selling art and craft items;
unfortunately, they are only open on Sunday! SIGHhh...
Wanted to explore two new places but i didn't have the chance to.

Shall I go Harbourtown with the girls tmr? Feeling a bit reluctant as
I'm afraid that i would not have much to chat with them (baby's other two roommates).
But its the sale season, and they might probably have more discounts there.

Ohh ... I saw a shooting star yesterday at the balcony!
Therese and me were talking about her encounter seeing shooting stars by the balcony jsut minutes before, and then suddenly i saw this silver dot drop down from the sky to a lower point.
It was so sudden and i didnt have the time to make a wish.
I shall stay by and keep a look out for my shooting star as i desperately need my wish to come true!
It was beautiful...

Was feeling confused just yesterday over some issues,
and I just needed to talk to someone, which i did.
Thanks Dodz!

There's Ocean's eleven tonight..yippe!

2007-06-04T21:09:00.000+08:00

Updated ... pictures...

Explored a new area today, Toombul.
They has a shopping center at Toombul and decided to take a bus ride down to spend my
afternoon. From the outside, it looks huge and exciting however its a huge disappointment;
they don't have much shops there, the shops that took up most of the spaces are Coles, TerryWhite, Bilo (supermarkets & pharmacy).
Indooroopilly is much much better, in fact i only spent about an hour walking around the place.
Brought a little something for Therese, one of Drew's housemate as she has gotten me
a little something the other day.
Glad that this trip round, i have someone that i can talk to and go out with sometime.

Went back to the apartment shortly after that, as i was feeling drowsy on the bus trip home and
decided to rest a bit before heading out for dinner tonight. We would be giving Zoe's family a treat tonight as the mum has been cooking lunch & dinner for us for the past one week. Besides, the mum has gotten a lot of ingredients and sauces for our usage as well.
We went to Plough Inn Steak House for dinner at South Bank. Have always wanted to try this place since the last time i was here; the place is always crowded with people at the bar through out the day. The food came in Large portion, it was reviewed with excellent food but i didn't think the food was that fantastic though.
But it was a nice experience, to try the food outside as to always cooking and eating in.

Matching set of green ... Hee

My choice: Pigs with Wings...
one of the House Specialities

Granny's choice: Seafood Platter... Yummy!

Zoe's & Mum's choice: Pork ribs & chicken wrap...

Baby's choice: Rump steak with baked potato...

Therese's choice: Rib Eye Steak with fries...

The ladies night ...
Lt to Rt: Therese, me, granny, zoe's mum & Zoe

Oh what shall I do tomorrow?
I want to explore around, but i feel reluctant when morning comes as recently i prefer to
have some company while exploring places around.

Last night, i went for mass at this catholic church with Therese; at the Cathedral of St Stephen.
Beautiful holy ground, and i will be back to take some pictures of the place some day.

2007-06-01T16:16:00.001+08:00

Went on a short exploring trip down the back of South Bank,

ended up walking by Mater Children Hospital and looked into some shops
that were interesting enough. There was a factory outlet store selling
Ben Sherman, Rockport, Royal Elastic stuff..
Saw some nice bargains from BS but didnt buy in the end, didn't want to buy for
the sake of buying.
There was this other shop Scarlet Rose, pretty nice Victoria style clothes but non interest me.

Went to city after that to check out the sale at Target.
Sigh* my boots were having 30% off.
Bleah..too rash in buying.
Oh well, at least someone complimented that my boots are nice today; the store keeper at
Scarlet Rose! *Grin*

Sunrise on the plane ...
Didn't think I would really see such a beautiful orange sunrise
in the shades of blue.

Me & my boots.. think i might need to wear socks..
kinda hurts..

While baby was studying...

South Bank at Sun down, from across the Good Will Bridge...

Captivated by the beauty of God's work...

2007-05-31T08:51:00.000+08:00

Crap! My wisdom tooth area still hurts.
Cmon, spare me pls! I don't want to take a visit to the dentist.

Went to Indooroopilly yesterday, and my gawd the place is a really big shopping mall.
Not as big as Taka, perhaps same size as Vivocity but the good thing is that it has
entertained me for 3 good whole hours!

There are many interesting shops ranging from flowers, to furnitures to clothes, shoes, accessories,
daily necessities, jeweleries etc..
Went inside this flower and stuff shop, really nice! They have an array of
photo frames, candles and figurines, glasses and card holders in a variety of rainbow colours; displaying in a blend like you are walking into a garden. Lovely!
Im always captivated by flower shops like these. Love to have one someday...

Finally i brought my boots!
At a size smaller than the one i reserved in the city that day but its of the same design!
So Happy! But it sorta burn a small hole in my pocket; i don't usually
spend this much on a pair of shoe.

I brought a long sleeved cotton top for baby too! Its stripped in shades of grey and white.
Actually preferred the one in blue but they dont have his size. Too bad!
Its a gift to encourage him for his revision as his exams are coming on 9th.

The day didn't end off that well after that, same old issues.
Too tired to even think or talk about it.
Always happens when we are staying under the same roof.
Spells something...

Haven't been taking much pictures... weird.
Anyway, here are just some of them...

South Bank...

On my way out yesterday...

My Boots!

2007-05-30T08:09:00.000+08:00

Changed my blog template but kept the same theme - Fashion.
This wasn't exactly the best I saw during my browse in Blogskin.com
but i was tired of having my previous.

Watched "Miss Universe 2007 in Mexcio" last night; surprised by the country that won.
Miss Japan won and have the universe in the palm of her hands!
Finally an Asian country make a mark in the world and put all the beautiful ladies from the usual
countries that will win to shame. Im surprised that Miss Japan won was because she wasn't the most beautiful, or the best walker with poise and elegance. But i guess her confidence and excellent answers in the final round won her The Crown.
I love Miss USA's black shimmering dress!
A pity she fell during her evening gown walk; i would think she has the chance of becoming 3rd/2nd running up. She's very beautiful and has a pair of deep eyes and sweet smile that charms one from head to toe.

Woke up earlier today, going to prepare to head down to the big shopping mall at Indooroopilly.
Gonna search for my boots and hopefully get it today.
A new place to explore! Alone. But well better than staying home and wasting the beautiful day away.

Yesterday evening, i walked over to West End (from South Bank.. yep its pretty far) and carried a heavy bag of oranges home. I nearly lost my way on the way there, but stopped to ask for direction; missed a right turn. Oopss...
The vegetables and fruits were selling at a much discounted price as compared to city. It a nice walk, other than the fact i was carrying something heavy.

I should go and prepare for my shopping trip...

2007-05-27T22:11:00.000+08:00

The weather here is cold; breezing wind in the afternoon and
chilling colds when night falls around 5 plus 6.
The day is so much shorter than the last time i came, and it is such a dismay
as not only does the shops close early, the day seems to end faster too.
And i have to wear thicker clothes or layers of it every time i goes out.
Im a summer person, love the sun more than the lack of it.

Though, Jac probably might think of that as an irony since half of my lifetime
I've been trying to avoid the sun rays.

Been going down to the city and checking out the shops and the mid season sale.
Not much to my liking as they were selling a lot of winter clothings; shades of grey, black and brown tones. They have white too! My current favourite!

They have some nice summer tops as well, though i must control my spending as my stay has only just started. I brought one top from Valley Girl for myself as a treat as i was feeling so lonely shopping alone again. It was an orange base, yellow and brown tone baby doll retro top.
Was looking for some winter caps too; saw some at SportGirl at a reasonable price but i shall continue looking around as i don't really need it now. I think its cool to be in Brisbane at a time like this, at least I'll be able to wear stuff that I wont be able to when Im back in Singapore.
Oh another plus point: I escape Singapore currently intolerable oven baked temperature!
*Grin*

Looking around for a pair of boots as well, and i found one that i really like but I have reserved it till this Thursday; which leaves me a couple of days to look around other places for cheaper and nicer ones.
I found this one at Target; it is brown with a tint of green suede soft leather material, ruffed up at the sides and has a short slit at the top back of the boots to allow easier wearing.
It cool that they allow a maximum of 7 days reservation (Lay By) for any items as well!
Maybe Singapore should come up with this too!

So basically I've been shopping and shopping... window shopping!
Oh I also went over to the library as i was intending to check up on something, on the other note, the library was a pretty big disappointments. Other than the nice interior, it basically only carry boring mundane books! I have walked round the shelves at least twice and i couldn't find more than 2 books that interest me. Which is usually weird, as I'm a reader and tends to have to choose between 4~5 books to bring home in order not to exceed the maximum quota.
Tsk Tsk...

Alright I will update more another time, as my darling needs his lappie soon!
Poor me, I should invest in a laptop soon so i can bring around when im overseas.
Indeed, as a Y-generation young adult, Internet has greatly influenced every inch of my life.

Happy Holidays!

2007-05-22T22:23:00.000+08:00

All my bags are packed I'm ready to go
I'm sitting here in front of my computer
I hate to leave my cozy room

I'm leaving on a commercial plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh baby, I want to go...

Haa my own version of " Leaving on the Jetplane"
Kept singing this song while packing my stuff today.
Beautiful lyrics.

Finally the taste of freedom has sunken in.
Was working the last part of last week for the gallery in preparation of the
exhibition; pretty quiet as compared to the last that i co-organized.
And so unofficially, last Saturday was my last day at work.
Been meeting up with various groups of friends as well during the week.
Met up with Melissa for a short shopping trip down Orchard Road,
and we both got a pair of shoe. I got a patent black ballerina flats for comfort walking
when I'm in Aust and she grabbed a pair of Charles & Keith heels.
Watched the movie Next starring Nicholas Cage and Jessica Biel.
I think the plot of the show was interestingly different, but the ending could have been better.

Macadamian Nut Journey;
with Strawberry Cheezecake and Belgium Chocolate

Our sugary sweet night out!

On Sunday, I met up with the NYP girls in the evening and we went to Minds Cafe;
where you could enjoy dinner while playing boardgames. Pretty cool and relaxing place to go especially with friends, but not when you are sat beside a group of rowdy and loud
gamers.
Thankfully, they have three levels and you could reside to a quieter and more peaceful table
when the worst situation occurs.
So we played this Compatibility game; really fun and interesting. It tests you on how well you know your friends, in terms of what they are thinking when a certain topic comes up.
And some really twisted thoughts or interpretation from one/some of your friend's choice of cards.
And we also played the Singapore version of Monopoly and i must say that luck is really important when it comes to this game, or even anything that we handle in our lives. Not only that, it is critical that we have a head start in it too. So well i don't know if my luck was good or bad, cause i was lucky enough to roll double many times on separate occasions, but that also led me straight to jail! Yep they couldn't help laughing and teasing me after that, but i think thats the fun part of it; when you are enjoying special moments like these with your close friends.
I really do like the feeling of meeting up with a certain group of friends occasionally in a month and throughout the year.
The part of life after graduation/ school that makes everything feels wonderful.
Though i hope that i can find passion in my career as well.

Anyway, i met up with mel again on Monday to buy the stuff needed for my trip. The latest regulation by CAAS really sucks.
Went to get other matters settled and met up with Jac & Gai for dinner at New York New York.
Looks like they have improved quite a bit on their food and service standards. I love their Turkey served with cranberry sauce sandwich. Its so yummy!
Maybe i can whip it up for baby too. Haa~
I suggested to go Minds Cafe again with the girls, and i had a great time playing the Monopoly! Haha my cravings for it has finally been satisfied.

We forgot to take pictures in the cafe so managed to snap a bit before we part our ways.

There are so many things that I have planned to do when I'm away on my trip.

(1) To explore the smaller town areas and the uncovered lands on my own, since he will be busy studying and it will be better for him to focus when I'm not around.
(2) To brush up on learning my French; I have even rip the lessons onto my mp3, anytime on the go!
(3) To relax and enjoy my freedom (away from school and part time work) while it last!

I love my sis! I hope you get well fast!

2007-05-15T18:28:00.000+08:00

Looks like the problem for blogger is not solved yet.. I hope i dont have to start up a new blog again.

Finally my years of university life came to an end. Wondering how come they have yet to notify the students about the convocation dates and preparations. Hmm...

When the last paper was collected on Friday, we all exhaled with a gush of relief and excitement. Some of us went out for lunch at Holland Village and after that Jac and me went to Far East to do some window shopping (well at least for me). Hopefully this month i can save up a bit of money to use for my Australia trip; its down to 8days! *Exhilarated*
Mel came back from US last week, so i met up with her on Friday night to watch Superman 3! Was elated that i can finally watch the movie; I totally heart the superman series. I think its my favorite hero among all the others.
Superman 3 was good; its really nerve grabbing though the last few minutes of the ending could have been better. Wonder if this is the last episode for the whole series? Hmm...

Went for a 3days 2 night chalet with the SIM girls at Downtown East Coasta Sand. Was fun to do a bit of catch up and relax together with them; playing games, watching tv and movie together, preparing for the bbq together. Guess we wont really have much of a chance after this. Jac and I was saying that it would be really nice if we could meet up at someone's place in the future and prepare for a party together; like getting, preparing and cooking the food together. Will we really get down to it? I would love for those sessions to come.. thats what life is about, enjoying the moments with friends.

We played mahjong on both nights and i turned out to be the overall winner on the two days. :)
It must be beginner's luck; i really dont know how the counting and scoring goes for mj but i guess i try to play the games with options, and together with luck i won some fake money *we didnt really play with money, i just won the chips* Haa but it was fun practice and i hope gai managed to learn how to play as well.

On the last night, we had the bbq. We went to NTUC fairprice to get the food in the early afternoon and headed back to the chalet to marinate the wings, fish, mushrooms and chicken chops. I started the bbqing and ended up having a half-cooked right thumb! Hee...but glad the food turned out delicious despite only left aside for marination for an hour. Hy brought curry chicken and it was D-licious! Yummy...too bad i was too hot and full after eating abit of the food and i didnt get to have a second helping for the curry chicken. Chris brought Otah too...Kerlin and Gops brought the beers and alcohol. Thanks guys for turning up, bringing the food and making this mini bbq session fun and successful. We even did a small cake cutting session for Kerlin as his birthday will be coming in a few days time.

We didnt manage to go Wild Wild Wet or Escape, but Im fine with it as it definitely beats getting tanner. Went home this afternoon and i slept a long nap, i cant even remember if i set an alarm or did i sleep though it totally. Still feels tired but i really need to pack my room; it looks like a messy rat hole. *Haa*

Will not be going NZ during june as the promotion ended before the guys managed to book. *Sigh* Will be going for a short roadtrip down to Sydney, Melbourne and Canberra. Hope and pray that i can extend my stay after i depart. Been feeling quite bothered and worries about it!

Alrighty..its dinner time...

2007-05-09T21:00:00.000+08:00

One last one on Friday and its finally over.
Glad i survived it through...

Been checking on something in the midst of preparations,
and hoping for a miracle somehow to happen.
Really hope to get it but hope is flicking and the success seems bleak...
Not giving up still... Just hope that the day will come when I can finally say it.
That would the day when I'll truly be bursting with joy.
Please give me your blessings Lord.

2 weeks left before i head to Aussieland... Got tons of things that i plan to get down on when im there. Haa thats if i don't continue to procrastinate. Oops~
Dar and friends been planning on a getaway to NZ after their exams, and naturally it includes me! If they could find an accommodation soon, then it would be a 10days adventurous trip! Lots of nature, lots of driving and exploring and perhaps some pulse throbbing vigorous sports activities?! Hmm... my adrenaline is pumping already!

Sigh...not much time left but i got to start on my SM!

Disappointed.

2007-05-06T21:53:00.000+08:00

Blogger is still physically dismantled!

SM case study is so tedious!
Was reading and preparing for it the last few hours, and suddenly
i just looked point blank at my computer screen.
I reached a point of saturation for SM for now.

Hopefully, ANTM will rejuvenates me later. Need all the time and motivation i can get.
Its like i cant control the part of my brain to get down to work, despite feeling the urgency.

Finished watching all 3 seasons of House, one season of Heroes and Ugly Betty.
Argh!

My spree half jacket is finally here in Singapore, but i have to wait for another week before i can collect it coz the organizer will only be free after this week!

Sad. I lost a friend when he/she went away...

2007-05-05T15:38:00.000+08:00

I think blogger is experiencing some format error...
My "create post" page format looks screwed up..haa

This is my third time in the day coming online.
Just feel so distracted to study that torturous chapter that my slack lecturer neglected,
he covered it by going through some questions with us... and we are suposed to know how to attempt the questions with no foundation? oh well..thats not the point.

Was feeling so stressed yesterday, everything is just tucking on my anxiety nerve.
Luckily my darling nyp girls timely asked me out for a drink... i figured why not, since i desperately need to vent out my anxiety and de-stress.
Due to some technical faults in the mrt line from douby guat onwards at the North East line, all the girls were late. Supposed to meet at 9pm but only managed to meet everyone all together at 10pm. We went in search for a place at the Cannery, everywhere was crowded with people! Saw the FashionBar, heart the deco! It was draped with strings of crystals all over...

We went to the Forbidden city to get a drink, but the service suckz and the food was horrid. Hate vegetables! haha...
So we decided to hop over somewhere else to eat, coz we all felt hungrier after eating the vegetable rolls. In need of fried, oily and unhealthy food!
We went Hooters. Got the cheesy fries and 10 piece chicken wings dipped with buttery sauce. Ooh it was good... Had fun with the girls yesterday, coz of the funny and weird conversations that we always have.

But right now, i think im lacking a dose of that again!
I was asked for my opinion of him staying on another year half for his Masters. What can i say?
If i said no, its just plainly selfish of me...if i said yes, then i will be lonely for a longer period of time. I said yes, and i meant it.. but theres a part of me inside that is starting to doubt what will actually happen for the next year half?
But in his position, wouldn't i want him to support me in whatever i want to do in the future too...
Distracted...

Im always contradicting myself i know.
Complicated...

2007-05-04T15:41:00.000+08:00

I have a lot of negative energy inside of me right now.
And im trying my best to stay optimistic.

I remember when i was young, i brought a card that has
an inspirational poem on it, which is why i brought it;
"Dont Give Up"
Its like God's word, giving me strength through a dark period of my life.

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit-
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a fellow turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out.
Don't give up though the pace seems slow
You may succeed with another blow.
Often the goal is nearer than
It seems to a faint and faltering man;
Often the struggler has given up
Whe he might have captured the victor's cup;
And he learned too late when the night came down,
How close he was to the golden crown.
Success is failure turned inside out
The silver tint in the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It might be near when it seems afar;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit -
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.

I must stay strong, cause its the only way that i can get through it,
everyone is around to encourage me..
but words are just words if you cant truly understand me...

God, take my worries along with you...

2007-04-30T12:20:00.000+08:00

I woke up with a stiff neck and shoulder ache.
Think my pillow is getting flatter again, which means i wont be getting a peaceful
and comfortable good night's rest soon.

Feeling tired, even having drank my morning coffee.

Been delaying my revision the past few days and now as it is drawing closer,
Im starting to get panicky and there is still so much to do.

I finally went for Novena Mass on Saturday before meeting up with Denis.
Feels good to be in the House of God once again. And the gospel for that mass
seems to be the reason why God brings me to him that day; its about finding your way
when you don't know which path to take.
Always towards God.
Prayed quite a bit and gave my long overdue thanksgiving.

Met up with Denis in town for dinner and movie, because he will be
flying off to North England, UK for transfer program for his last year.
so good... I should have taken up my exchange program too. Sigh
Another friend will be flying off to MIT in September as well..
Why is everyone going to off to somewhere better?

Anyway, we watched Wild Hogs; a really hilarious show,
a good anti-depressant and relaxant for this period.
Everyone's exams are finishing earlier than Sim's this semester.
Some are finishing even before i start mine. Bummer!

And i went to check out the Nokia Amour phones that i was interested in.
The material that they used for the phone is such a turnoff!
And i don't like it anymore, Im contented with my current phone before i find my next target.
But im thinking of getting a phone for my mum for Mother's day and her bdae.
Thinking Nokia 6300 was not bad.
Its slim and chic and the buttons are relatively big as well. Just that it is abit pricey.
Will have to look for something sooon...

Alrighty, im feeling a little awake after writing this entry...
Have been missing my daily dose of House. Sob...
Perseverance!

2007-04-27T13:02:00.000+08:00

Sad!

Everything is going down these past few days...

Stop!

Things are just so hard to manage.
When you are concern about it and spends time and effort in it,
it just doesnt go your way. You have to try different methods, resort to different means,
do through it a few more rounds and yet you wont get it.

When you decide to give it up and let it be,
focus on minding something else and it will come running back;
asking for your attention.

Its like losing some thing; no matter how hard you try to remember
when you have last placed it,or your search the entire place up and down for it,
you just wont find it. The minute you turn your back and look for something else,
it appears right in front of you.

Why do the God's nature way of life works this way?
Can some things just be simpler?
Want something and treasure it, so it doesn't get lost.
Don't want something, and throw it away and hope you wont regret.
We cant really have the best of both worlds for anything...
other then a few lucky ones...

2007-04-23T21:50:00.000+08:00

Suddenly feel like changing phone...
my 7610 limited edition is now worth only S$100 trade-in...
If i shall wait longer, it might even decrease its self-worth to S$50

My current impulse is Nokia Lamour Collection,
Singapore Fashion Week 2007 Nokia 7373 or 7390...
Actually i like the 7360 model, no flip and has more pink on it.
But the functions arent as good as the other two model...

From Left to Right: 7373, 7360 and 7390

I think im leaning more towards 7373, because its has more details and the
cover has more pink motifs...
But i dont really like the swivel movement... Unlike the flip phone,
its just a flip, butt the cover of the flip phone has a thick border of
cream colour... not as appealing...

Anywae, the value of this phone before trade-in is probably 300+,
which means that i have to pay 200+ after trade-in.
Dont have the cash... sigh so no phone for now...
Besides i think its currently sold out if im not wrong...

Maybe the D&G Motorola Gold Razor...
Hmm.. All these will have to wait....

2007-04-22T13:21:00.000+08:00

Lethargic
Headache!

Think I had too much fun yesterday...

Went KTV with XL, RL and Hil at Cine kbox.
The sound system wasnt as good as the previous time i was there,
nonetheless we had fun... wanted to sing more oldies songs but ended up not having enough time.
As there were quite alot of people waiting for the rooms after 6pm. Sigh~

There were Bags and Shoes sale at Taka Sqaure, and
Hil and Xl went crazy... haha

Had to leave to meet Ginny, Esther and HT for dinner.
We went to Sun & Moon Jap restaurant at Wheelock;
We wanted to treat Esther for dinner as a celebration of her birthday,
then happily she chose the place! The food was ex... clever choice. haha
But glad she chose it, because the food was great there.
Baby would love the sliced beef rice with raw egg that i had!
It was like koba beef, so tender and juicy;
the rice have many other ingredient inside as well.
Some green flats beans and this other thing that you usually see people cooking
in charchoal outside, its has thick brown shell..
haa nvm, i forgot what it was called.
Then we also ordered salmon sashimi.. though it was only 5 pieces;
it tasted so good! Premier quality for sure!

We wanted to watch Nightmare Detectives, but the seats left were all first role,
so we went over to this Hong Kong cafe for dessert instead.
Had a great chat session; as usual they were saying about their hospital experiences
with some annoying patients and some cute adoring doctors!
Aiyo... I also want! haha
Then we were chatting about starting up a business together...
quite fun with all the ideas pouring out.
Ginny and Ht might consider coming over to Aust for their short holiday too!
If so, I can show them around den i wont be as bored discovering places on my own
when dar is studying at home. Hee
So excited!

Wanted to head home at around 12+ when i bumped into Hil and Peach again!
Haa so end up i went to join them cause it was a long time since i last saw Peach.
She is still as cranky as usual!
We went back to that same HK cafe...
and my bump was already hurting from sitting down for the last 2 hours...
And Guess who were saw at that same cafe!
Haa~ Xl and her bf were sitting few tables away too!
How coincident!

It was a long night and i felt so exhuasted upon reaching home last night.
Im really getting old...
Had to cancel today's gym session with Xl too...

2007-04-20T15:37:00.000+08:00

Feeling so slack today.
This is not good; especially after spending yesterday on
shopping therapy and away from my books.
Woke up later than usual today, which ruin my mood a little as i have less time to
get things done.. Which resultantly developed my slack behaviour.
Doesnt make sense, I know...

And i received something that changed my mood even more;
despite that i should be happy but I couldn't cause it resurfaced my
constant internal struggle that I frequently hide inside my closet..

Unproductive!
Irritated with myself.

On the other note,
My Mango door gift...

The small prints actually state "MNG Accessories January MMVII"

&

my "clown suit cum armor-looking" top which I brought...

At least baby think its nice! Hee~

Good Luck for your papers dar...

2007-04-19T23:09:00.000+08:00

Oh! It got to be ...

Finally! Thanks Twinny!
for bringing me to one of my favorite designer clothing fashion show.
Mango Spring collection 2007 show was held at
Red Dot Musuem off Maxwell street...
A really artsy place for a glamorous chic event.
Lurvve It!

The show was much longer as compared to others that I have been to.
It featured their latest 3 collections...
.... Night Graffiti ...
(cant rem the other two collections name)
There were a splash of accessories and handbags (but mostly imitations of Prada, Miu Miu, Fendi and LV); nonetheless I was interested in 3 of the bags...
Their accessories are nice too (targeted 2 of it) and the heelsss!! Omg! Love this white patent leather heel!
ooh..

Their 1st collections focused on alot of white and shades of green.

This is one of the bag i like..
its satin material...

the 2nd clutch bag i like..
red patent material...

The second collections; Night Graffiti
was focusing more on bright neon colours...

the third bag i like...small and neat
its quilted material like Marc Jacobs...

her belt has the Fendi buckle...

I love her walk...

like the off shoulder top...

The third collections focused on shinny light colours like silver and also white.

love this babydoll dress..
Its actually shimmering champagne gold colour.

her necklace was really chunky..

Im right at the top of the steps..
hee ... a model for Mango too! Haa~

They were serving drinks throughout the show;
and silly me asked what drink it was when it was yellowish with a tinge of green!
It must be the studying!

For the door gift,
i got a coin pouch matching their new Pantone bag (which my sis already have it).
Its real leather like pig skin material (but dont think it is)
Unfortunately i got a light blue colour..but still its nice..hee
Think im just gonna put my keys and perhaps my gloss...

I went bugis with Hildra before the show too.
And i think studying straight for a few days twitched some nerves
up there, made me went on a shopping therapy!
Brought two tops! haa
First one looks more like an office wear but yet it has some unique frills/folds at the side.
Hildra said its looks like an armour, and my sis said it looks like a clown suit.
But i think its different, can be classy and the material is pretty good.
Pretty cheap too, got a discount for it! haa
And the second top was of satin material, champagne gold colour; which i also
got a discount for it because hildra also brought a top from that shop.

My camara ran out of batteray; so didnt take a picture of my conquer today!
Will upload more again...

Boo! Back to my sad world of SM....

2007-04-17T21:25:00.000+08:00

"The Philosophy of life.
You cannot get disgruntled for everything.
It will only make things more painful.
When you learn to accept situations for what they are,
then you will realise that it would not bother you so much any more.."

words of a wise man.. Rajasegaran

2007-04-17T17:36:00.000+08:00

De motivated !

my progress of studying was snail-paced.
Kept coming online to surf the internet, watch my shows and play yahoo games!

Dream Wedding

This game was pretty fun because the graphics are very nice & colourful;
its pretty challenging despite it being a simple easy game (finding hidden objects);
and its a pretty neat idea of helping someone create how their love story goes..
It was addictive for me... want to kill some time; you can try this..
Haa~

Kept thinking about one of my dream business plan after playing this game...
I really need to focus on revision...

Sigh~ when is my spree half-jacket ever gonna arrived...
Feel like buying some tops to therapy my de-motivation...
feel like getting the black jeweled ring i saw at Diva...
a new hp (kidding.. not really tempted)

Why does all these revolve around money?!
Bleah~

2007-04-16T16:49:00.000+08:00

Hey guys,
do check out this auction...

Intimates

My aunt is selling these and im helping her to do some promotions...
Do support..Thanks!
Haha...

2007-04-15T21:39:00.000+08:00

Channel 5 was showing "The Last Samurai" in the evening,
Tom Cruise was the leading actor.
I didn't get to watch the whole show but snippets of it, and I think
its a really good and inspiring show.
No wonder it was nominated for 4 Oscars
and have 15 other wins.

Dad got a new hand phone, the N73 series...
But i think he wasn't very pleased with his buy because it brought to him some
discomfort when using; the keypad was small and it wasn't as user-friendly as
he expected.
The phone has too many functions and thus alot of it were compartmentalized.
But he probably feel the pinch of getting another phone after spending 300+ for this, but with
the trade-in of the phone i got for him; so he only paid 100+.
But dad is a very thrifty person, it has been worst when he tries his best to provide for
all our needs; thus minimizing any spending on himself.
I do hope i can get a job quickly so I can ease his burdens and hopefully make
his life more comfortable and in tune with the society.
But Im too picky in the companies that I hope to get into.
I think its because of my principles; that we should engage in a career that we have passion
in and is motivated to contribute in it.
Life is already so complicated and hard, and many a times disappointing,
I think it can only be fulfilling if we can do something we like for the next few decades of our lives. Though it is sad that, that thought itself is too idealistic.
Lucky are those who have the capabilities; in terms of intelligence,money, looks and connections.
Makes me have so many regrets...
Majority of them get an easier way into the job they want.

Sigh~

Oh thanks Chris for offering me a ride to Toa Payoh stadium on Saturday!
I was waiting for the bus at the bus stop and suddenly a car pulled over; it was Chris in his "new" car, he was nice and sweet to offer me a ride despite it being a totally different directions from where he is heading.

Waiting for my ANTM...

2007-04-14T16:32:00.000+08:00

It doesn't feel like it is a Saturday today.
Been feeling so sian the past few days, think its the wave cycle as mentioned in
John Gray's book, "Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus".

Worked the past two days and got quite a bit of stuff done, though i was feeling so bored especially yest. Went to have dinner with Mel after work at Bugis and shopped abit with her to look for her friend's present.
So tempted to get stuff but i cant! Sigh~
Something interesting happened at work today too, that cheered me up abit and made me felt more motivated! Told Hildra and Xinloo about it..
Haa couldnt keep it to myself. Maybe i needed attention from someone and when i finally got it, i felt appreciated and noticed.
*Grin*

Went gym early this afternoon with xinloo, but we were both feeling very lethargic. So didn't exactly do a full work out gym session as per normal. Went Mos Burger for lunch with her and she ordered so much! Yummy but darn im putting weight back on! Haiz~
But thanks for the treat once again! Hopefully our little peck together will come true then i can give u a treat back!

Bored. No life.
and its funny that some people doesn't think that its possible for me to feel this way.
Nonetheless, there are people worst than me, but it doesn't eliminate the fact
that i feeling this way too.
When i start my exam revision, im sure this feeling will escalate and im gonna be so cranky again.
I guess this is the set back of having a long distance relationship;
feeling neglected is inevitable.
But im not saying that its alright!
Something should have been done but after going through it constantly;
I have given up on trying to get anything out of it.

More photos...
Taken during WIL2 group projects in school...

Some passerbys were actually staring at us taking this photo;
we posed for quite a few shots but all turn out horribly as
one of us will burst out luffing before the camera register the picture!
-_-"

I realized that my darling Dicheng and me loves taking pics.. haa

Seriously feeling so sian of everything...
Makes me feel the urge of running away to have a fresh start where no one knows me ...
Just a thought...

2007-04-11T23:30:00.000+08:00

Sometimes too late its just too late?
Even a "sorry" doesn't help to ease away the pain...

Why are things so complicated?
And i wish i know...

I got toothache and i hope it will go away soon.
For those who don't know yet, i hate visiting the dentist; coz im scared.
Not the dentist, but the pain. BLeah!

Today was the last lecture of my university life..
Nostalgia was sinking in slowly when in class.

Thanks Gai was reminding me to take a picture in our lecture for the last time.

A pity that not everyone is around...

We went for our last "gathering session after school" outing to sing ktv at Cine.
Took many more photos...
My mind was deep in thoughts about something during the outing, but glad the songs
distracted me for a few hours before exhaustion finally sets in towards the end.

will miss these babes...

Trev, our idol; Gai, my blue fairy; and Jac aka di cheng

Jac, Silvia and Ceci

Cari, Gai and Jac

Marian & Me

My dearest di cheng and Me

candid pose #1

candid pose #2

Trev photographing from overhead

Marian, Me, Cari and Trev

Its a long day..
with more things up my mind now..
Got to head for work tmr and on Friday...

Are we actually staring at the same stars in the sky, why do u feel so far away...

2007-04-10T23:38:00.000+08:00

Finally our last project of my school life comes to an end,
the very minute we drop the 1.5inch bound book into the assignment box.
Soon the university life is coming to a closure..
Tmr will be my last business lecture sitting in the LT,
looking across to so and so and thinking back on those days in the beginning sem.

Nostalgia...

Went out for another shopping therapy session after lecture too..
Went bugis this time round with Jac and Gai; Ceci jjoined us after dinner.
Someone asked me, if i feel bored to shop so many times within the week.
And i said, its not the shopping, its the company; and i meant it...
Will we get together so often after we graduate?
Will we make the effort to catch up with each other after that; and fill each
other with updates on our lives?
when some hardly even do so now...
How often will we make a point to meet up;
when some don't even remember the significance of 27th Sept for every year.

Sadd...

Out of these 3 years, how many good and close friends have i made?
I would want to say its more than 3, but i really couldn't be sure...
some things just make me think otherwise...
Though I must say, as compared to in the past,
I don't say out as much of my thoughts and feelings to my friends anymore..
I feel i might be too old for that, and at times i feel that some doesn't seem like they care enough to want to do anything even after knowing...
I might be wrong...
but it definitely keep me from feeling more disappointments
from friends that I want to have close friendship with...

Its an Emo post... pardon me..

So back to the shopping therapy..
Saw some nice satin blouses that i like..but didnt buy any in the end coz im
desperately saving money .. and I need to save for a vest that im am looking for too.
*which i got it already.. Haa!*
Jac brought so much today! Haa but glad that she found what she wants..
Im sure gonna miss shopping with this babe and her entertaining whinniness.
Gonna miss the sweet and understanding Gai, for always taking time to go shopping with me even when she is carrying heavy stuff, or feeling tired or wanting to go home earlier.
I will miss Ceci for her frank and encouraging opinions and for always giving out compliments!

*Crap* I realized i kept drifting away and feeling jaded..

Anywaee.. we bumped into Phoebe and her sister in bugis and ended up shopping together for a while. Went to Breko to drink and chat after that.
Oohh Heineken tastes sooo good!
Took some photos..
yeah love taking photos coz it will let me reminisce the past whenever i look through them.

Phoebe & Me
While waiting for Jac and Gai as they try out clothes @ Hurs

Jac & Me
@ the Hawker Center, while waiting for Ceci to finish her dinner...
(rem the first time i ate with her there after shopping too)

Gai & Me
doesnt she look like a blue fairy...

@ Breko

Ceci's missing in action ...

Its the good company that matters...

2007-04-08T02:17:00.000+08:00

Finally!
My last school project has ended!
But i have yet to get down to doing the team and self evaluation.
*Bored*

Went town with Jac and Gai after project today,
we shopped at Far East while waiting for Ceci and Cari to join us for dinner
and chilling out session at night.
We went into Future State cause it was having its S$9 sale for everything!
And we witnessed the worst customer service ever.. not to any of us of coz,
but to this foreigner, which Jac thinks might be from Indo.
The sales assistant was attending to the tough client; which later i overheard them saying
that it was about not being able to try out the clothes, and the customer kept insisting on it.
So after much frustration, the customer flung the top at the sales assistant; which ended up flying to her face.
So the sales assistant was very angry, and she started shouting at the customer really loudly over the loud R&B music.
She was screaming at the customer to get out of the shop, a few times...
Everyone in the shop was really shocked, so the customer ended walking out of the shop and saying something in a foreign language (which i suppose she is probably complaining about the sales girl).
But after that, that sales assistant provided pretty good and nice service to me and gai and some of the other ladies when they paid for the stuffs. Haa~

Even though there are many difficult customers around, who might be demanding and trying to bend the rules, or even insulting you; but as someone who has been working in the service industry for over 6 years, I feel that such actions and attitude of service staff should not be tolerated. And judging the majority of Singaporeans' character and the social norms, such bad customer service would be reported or complained immediately. Luckily that lady was a foreigner, but she probably developed a really bad impression of Singapore from that one incident. *Sigh*
But I daresay, Singapore has alot to learn about providing good customer services as compared to Australia, Taiwan etc.

So anyway, I brought a purple laced and sequined spaghetti top.
Hee its cheap and its so sweet and princessy.
Jac brought 3 items and Gai brought an oriental black tube.
But overall, Jac beat us all in shopping today.. As Always!

Went to Alleybar at No.5 Emerald Hill to chill out after dinner..
Had Snowball and yummy wedges with cheezy mayonnaise sauce!
Double sin! Have to run more tmr again!
Nice session tonight, before breaking for exam break...
Thanks babes for the evening and we didnt take a group picture =(

2007-04-07T00:36:00.000+08:00

Went for another fashion event on Wednesday evening;
featuring Esprit edc outside HMV.
They stationed the show right in front of Balcony and have the VIP and refreshment
area at the right side of NYDC, that was nearest to Balcony; so that the guests can still view the fashion show quite clearly while relaxing by the couch.
The layout and setting of the event was pretty catchy, its like an outdoor party with krazy
graffiti and art painted on the fake "walls" ..Live!
They have pretty babes on rollarblades, holding the Edc signboard and
blading up and down the street to publicize the event.

So Hildra and I went to sign in at the reception booth under the Media section,
and we got our first door gift; a edc dog tag chain that we have to wear to enter and a big silver edc
sticker! Silver for Media people.. and Red for other guests!
Haa the privileges of being in the media.. Thanks Twinny!!
So when we entered into the party, we were given marker to sign on the main board;
where photographers will stop the celebrities so that they can take a picture beside their signature or while they were signing..
They were mass serving bottles of Barcadi and food sponsored/catered by nydc..
Yummy mushroom pizza!
I had like 3 pieces (small) and apparently the waiter knew that i love eating it
Oops~

They have bowls of colorful M&Ms and sweet cupcakes with "edc" chocolate plate on it,
found on large cylindrical tin containers representing tables.
The setting and ambiance was simply wild! Didn't take much pictures though as I was
juggling with my barcadi bottle on one hand and my bag on the other.

Standing infront of the graffiti walls...
and my little cupcake!

Thats the main signature board behind my lovely Twinny!

I drank on an empty stomach and guess I was feeling a little tipsy before the show even got started! And sadly, I missed the whole fashion show as I was feeling hot and dizzy and went to sat by the couch.
Hil said that I missed some hunky models... I wonder if she was looking at the
clothes or the models!! Hmmp~
When we left the event, we got another bag of door gift; got a compact army umbrella,
a grey v-necked top, nice nail polish! (love the colour) and some discount voucher..
Oh and also this luggage tag that I could use when i go Aussie!
Hildra also gave me a copy of her Wine & Dine magazine where she have written some articles!
Gonna scan it up on my blog one of these days..
Really interesting articles, not to be missed!!

Went shopping with her at Heeren for awhile before heading home.
And i finally brought my plain black pointed kitten heels at Far East!!

Gonna hand up my last project coming monday..
and it will probably be my last school project!
Schools ending... exam break is coming and

Yeahh im going to Aussie to see my baby soon!

2007-04-02T18:36:00.000+08:00

It was April's Fool day yesterday.
Did anyone of you got fooled?
I couldn't remember till my dearie drew made a lousy attempt in fooling me
by saying he lost his handphone ?! Haa~
Back in my days, in primary school
what we did is to hold pieces of chalks in our hands and hide it behind our back.
Then we would purposely shake hand with another friend.
Either that we would have the flatted balloon placed on the victim's chair;
and when she sat on it, it would produce a farting sound.
The next classic is hiding some fake rubbery cockroach or lizard on the floor to scare others.

Yeah so during the night,
dearie and me were trying to "fool" each other over msn ...
the score is 2:2! Haa~
Thinking back on the issues that we "fooled" each other with;
it was quite hilarious and silly.
But fun!

2 weeks left till exam break....
*gasp*

2007-04-02T00:06:00.000+08:00

Finally after burning so many weekends at home,
I went out with XL yesterday for dinner and a movie.
Managed to study quite a bit during the day, which made me felt better
slacking my night away with some nice company and a movie that I
was hoping to catch.

Watched "Because I Said So"
starring Diane Keaton and Mandy Moore, and this other girl who was
the lead actress for Coyote Ugly; she has a figure to die for...
It was a nice and hilarious show, but it wasnt as lovey dovey romantic as I have expected.
But still it was great movie choice to catch with for the evening, especially when
you are watching with girls. Definitely something more suited for the
female crowd.
Its been a long time since I have actually watched a movie with her; the last time
was after O' Levels..
When we met up everyday to shop for prom dresses and accessories.
Miss those days..

Took a picture in the theater, when it was less crowded. Haa~
And I was "corn" into eating popcorns...
3/4 pack of it is still lying on my dining table!

2007-03-31T13:39:00.000+08:00

It is overrated.
There is always two sides to a situations.
Setting judgments too quickly, blinds you from the other side.

Something that I must remember too...

2007-03-30T00:26:00.000+08:00

Chanced upon someone's blog just now..
read something that really made me think that sweet guys are still around.
It was in Chinese and i couldn't copy it over, so I'm just gonna translate it here..

This person was being asked the question on what love is...
so he/she answered this:
" Love is two-sided and require both party to put in effort.
It needs to experience together. It is fate.
You need to be truthful,
understanding,
faithful.
You need to support and help each other through problems.
Till the end of time"

And it follows on with what he/she heard from his/her friend.
And this is what he said:
(which made me believe in true love once again)

"He said. He will spend money to dress up his girl and make her pretty but for himself, he can make do with anything simple.
He said. He really dote on his other half. He really love her.
He said. He will be very worried when his girl is sick.
He said. He will help and give her support when she is in trouble.
He said. He will listen to her.
He said. He will plan for their future, so he can give her security.
He said. No matter who is in the right or in the wrong, he will apologize first.
He said. He will give her money to use.
He said. He will take care of her and provide for her needs.
He said. He will think of her and misses her every minute, every second of the day.
He said many many others..."

I say, he really loves her alot and she is really important to him.
For all thats worth, she is a very very lucky girl.

And I hope that I can be that lucky one day...

2007-03-29T23:03:00.000+08:00

I had a long day today.
Went to work till 530pm before heading down to school.
I met Gai at cityhall to go school together,
since she was reaching cityhall at the same time as me...
Was busy at work today, i was assigned so much tasks to do
cause i cancelled my shift last week.
Nearly got a nice fairly big sales today...
end up the client was really cheapo, he got a small painting
that was priced realllly low.. So i earned $1.80 commission!!!
Sigh~

Feeling the exhaustion draining me up during lecture today.
Didn't have my dinner yet, coz i had a heavy late lunch at 4pm..
Now im feeling hungry, but its too late..

Waiting to call baby now...
wanna call him soon so we can tok longer..
but figure that our conversation will end short once again.
Sigh... Sad...

Going to work tml again..
So i really need to start on IME revision during the weekends..
But i just saw two new shows on the newspaper,
and i really need some sweet romantic show to cheer me up soon.
Theres one by Diane Keaton and Mandy Moore.
I think Diana Keaton is a really good and charismatic actress...
She's still so beautiful at her age now...
When can i watch it?
Sigh~

2007-03-28T20:15:00.000+08:00

Went for the Job Fair Networking lunch today...
It was pretty boring and wasn't really useful.
the companies that I was looking forward to didn't turn up,
either that they aren't recruiting for that particular department..
The plus point was that i got free Cocoa goodies bag! wow~

Was exhausted when i came home, didn't sleep much yesterday..
Had a nice long deep nap today...
Working tomorrow.. Sian~
How shall i tell my boss that I'm thinking of quitting really soon
when she just got pregnant, and the other part-timers wont be continuing
after the hols!
I feel bad... after she have always treated me so well..
and the fact that i always MIA during the hols...
But then again, its really not something that i intend to work full-time permanently for.
Haiz.. retaining of employees is difficult despite good culture,
good benefits, good employees etc..

Loneliness calls me by name...

2007-03-27T23:08:00.000+08:00

One more down.
Writing MC analysis today was horrid. The time passing so slowing, and this
girl sitting beside me is de-motivating me because she just kept stoning
and putting her head down to "sleep".
Glad its over...
Was so tired today, looking around for my stupid shoe in bugis
but they either dont have the specifics that i want or my size!
Bummer! I went far east few weeks back to find my shoe too, its simple plain flats..
why isz so hard...Sob
And my darn spree half jacket is taking so long...haizz
no motivation..No MOtivation!

Next one... IME...
Need to find some time to study... :(

Its been a longgg time since i went to the movies...
Dont even know whats on screen now..
Dont really like the idea of watching alone, shopping alone...
its a good thing that i dont really have the time too, at least i dont have the
option of doing all that alone.

Sad...

2007-03-25T22:31:00.000+08:00

They say that people under the Pisces star sign are very idealistic.
I didn't think so initially, there are situations when we accept the flaws
and learn to see the beauty in it.
But more and more, the "truth" weave in silently into my life.
I'm shocked with my expectations of certain issues
and how insistence that I pursue it accordingly.
I'm afraid that I could not adjust myself if i lower
these expectations of mine,
as it would not be prefect after that.
Is it wrong to hold on so firm?

Even after awhile I'm so tired of it,
its hurting me but yet i feel a need to stand firm.
Letting go of what I believe in would only
make me feel more injustice inside.

But time and again, situations kept popping up and testing
this side of me. Its breaking me and it just makes me wonder
why I'm getting all these..
Why cant it go away ..
I'm trying very hard to handle it,
so please stop coming back...

I think I have a problem that I need to overcome
but i don't know how...

2007-03-24T23:24:00.000+08:00

Went for Ecoluxe 07 Fashion Show at Raffles City,
it is one of the show in conjunction with the Singapore Fashion Festival 2007.

It featured three designers from UK, Australia and NZ.
Among the three, i love Sarah Ratty (UK) design the most;
it is actually a brand named CIEL. The designs are very wearable and yet it look
high-fashion, chic and hip. Too bad that she doesn't have the brand in Singapore,
it would be nice to go take a look at her other collections.

Took some pictures at the end of the show..

Featuring Peri Drysdale of Untouched World (NZ)
They have some nice jackets and sweaters but as quoted from Hildra:
"Its looks abit like Giodano designs"

These are CIEL's.. i love the gold dress's sleeve, and this other white dress
that was not shown here.
Very European design..

Featuring Katelyn's (Aust)...
She plays alot with colours and her designs are more wild
and dangerous...

Back to studying for MC,
my progress is so slow..sigh*

Tmr's the 25th...
and i hope for the same thing every month...

2007-03-24T00:26:00.000+08:00

Studying for MC is making me irritable.
Even chocolates ain't helping..
Thx Sis for the RitaSports White with Hazelnut! My Favourite..

Was talking to dar just now..
And due to the post-studying (minimal success) stress,
I was in a cranky mood and was complaining about all the unhappiness
to him over the phone..
Oops~
but i wasn't entirely at fault... CK kept saying things to make me insecure!
-_-"

Hee but poor dar is at the feeding end of my frustrations..
thank you dar for tolerating with my cranky behaviour!
muackz!
But i dont want to be like miki.. and for the record its coming to 2 years.
So dont break Ck's record ya!
Hee~

Off the topic..
Someone kept asking me bizarre questions..
And its just weird, I cant exactly answer them
and i didn't want to seem mean but after awhile
it just seem like the person is finding answers that can give him/her more assurance.
Then in such situations, the more you should be finding someone more
credited to answer you.
Or just try to analyze or decide on your own...

Ok clearly, i'm still feeling irritable...

2007-03-23T18:49:00.000+08:00

Nothings going in...
It just seems weird that i have to study more than half of the entire sem's
topics for my MID-sem test..
Bleah... darn can I even finish in time..

Flight booked.. Should be paying for it these few days.
Not going to stay as long this time round..
*Sigh* its not going as I have hope it would be again...
Wanted to stay longer, so I could celebrate our 2nd year together...
Waiting waiting waiting.. and being away...
Its making me miss out so many things of being in a relationship..
HAIz*

2007-03-22T23:23:00.000+08:00

Tired after a whole day in school. I'm so caught up in settling projects, arranging for meetings and finding time to do research, to work so that i can get the little bit of pay for June and time to start studying for upcoming tests.
I'm in need of a good massage, at somewhere neat and peaceful, somewhere sceneric; where i can breathe in the few air of greeneries and sweet scents of flowers. Somewhere, where i could hear the sounds of nature, and wake up to a breath-taking view; where i can get lost in it. Ooh, that sounds like an exotic spa somewhere away from the city! Haa~

Been doing a little self-reflection in my own thinking space, and i realized that there are some issues about me that i need to control and change.
Perhaps i have been too demanding in my expectations... or perhaps I'm being too difficult... Am i too fast to put a judgment? Why am i acting the way i do at times ...
I do hope that in any situations that i might have caused unhappiness to anyone, i apologized for it... Though it might not necessarily mean that i do not stand firm in what i believe in.

Its important to be confident of who you are, to hold on to your personal values, your needs, wants and ambitions. Ultimately, these are the things that pushes you towards achieving your goals.. Though its hard not to doubt yourself at times, but a little help from above and from ourselves is good.

The power of the mind makes who you wants to be.

2007-03-21T20:11:00.000+08:00

Sis went KL last weekend and she brought these for me!
Thanks Sis! Muackz!

My latest splurge! *Ouch, my wallet!*
If only the material was better...

2007-03-21T00:42:00.000+08:00

Its the busy period now, and its gonna carry on till my exam break starts in about 1 month time!
*Exhale* Everything is coming up to my neck and i just need a breather for abit... Oh and my exam timetable is out... Thankfully its nicely spread out... enough time for studying and watching shows.haha!
My spree item that I got the previous week, its OOS! Sob! I have to wait for another few weeks when the stock comes in again. Sigh~ Been like waiting forever...
Got quite an interest in this bag that i saw yesterday.. thinking that maybe i should go get it tomorrow.. Haa... Should I? Hmmp...

A little update on one of the meet up during my birthday period with my NYP friends..

Unfilling Dinner at Out in the Pan Cafe?
Haa this cafe located at the basement of Raffles City

Esther & Me..

Ginny & Me ..

Wonderful present from them...
2 facial masks (yeah can relax) and one rose refreshing spray.

Was thinking about some sad facts of life... I'm partly amused by it, on how it surface in times like this and partly I'm feeling jaded,this is how it is...
But of coz, who am I to cast the first stone when at some points of my life, I'm like them too..

For once, I'm glad that in my younger days, I have been through some hurdles and "pains" to be able to stay strong and look at these situations objectively.

Tired...Finally the end of the SM episode...thats Strategic Management btw...

2007-03-20T18:48:00.000+08:00

"Fashion is good for the Soul" .... Ugly Betty

Its like when carrying a designer's bag,
its makes people feel good, its makes people "feel beautiful"
And i totally agree with it.
Its definitely not a necessity
but fashion is ...
its brings out your own personal style and character,
and it makes you feel confident and happy!
But of course, its a high maintenance hobby to adopt
i suppose we could do with a little knock-off designers goods at times..
Haa..

2007-03-20T18:43:00.000+08:00

Your Scholastic Strength Is Evaluating

You are great at looking at many details and putting them all together.

You are talented at detecting subtle trends, accuracy, and managing change.

You should major in:

Statistics

Speech

Conflict studies

Communication

Finance

Medicine

What Should You Major In?

The "dumb scholastic thgiee" that Dodz mentioned...
Looks like I majored correctly! haa~

And this...

You Are Pretty Happy

You generally have a happy, fulfilling life.

But things could be a little better, and deep down, you know it.

Maybe you need more supportive friends or a more challenging career.

Something is preventing you from being totally happy. You just need to figure out what it is!

How Happy Are You, Really?

2007-03-18T13:39:00.000+08:00

SM assignment is draining me up.
I'm practically sitting by the computer everyday and coughing words out.
I don't know what to write and this is so not fun!

Photo taken during the second event on Friday
The Old Hollywood

I think i need to brush up on my socializing/networking skills.
I'm the wall flower most of the time, munching down plates of food.
haha~

2007-03-16T23:19:00.000+08:00

I went to two events just now with Hildra; one is a fashion show featuring Foi 2007 bejeweled designs. Its some local designer's brand at Centrepoint... I think some of the clothes are not bad, while some are just wearable but definitely not high-end fashion. But the concept of how the brand was started up was pretty good.
Anyway, the door gifts was a paper bag filled with stuff; 2 bathing foams from Original Source, some vouchers from this exquisite shoe shop and Foi's, The Monty magazine, some hair products from Clairol and my favourite is this jeweled bracelet from Foi!
The fashion show was really that fantastic, because 4 out of 6 of the models are non-professional models and they cant cat-walk nor pose. It was actually uncomfortable watching them pose because some of them were actually leaning forward to the camera and pouting.. Anyway, the main designer was pretty upset during the show upon seeing such performance.

After that, we went over to another event at Asian Civilian Museum, "The Old Hollywood". It was some kind of networking event where people in the media and creative industry comes together and network.
The door gift was incredible; free MAC products for ladies and Agus B for the guys! Haa we half expected something from Agus B for us too. Anyway, this event was really glamorous and spectacular. Firstly, they the decoration was fantastic! Its like wedding ambiance, they have a big array of seafood right at the entrance of the hall. Its fresh oysters, lobsters and prawns all placed on ice with some ice sculpture above them. Then there were pretty little desserts in assorted colours and fruits stacked on metal shelves around the room. the metal shelves are decorated with leaves and berries plant entwine around the pole and some beautifully arranged flowers on the top shelve. Very nice! Its like a secret garden in the hall.
Wanted to take a photo of the place, but the hall was crawling and packed with people.. In fact i saw a few celebrities like Chen Han Wei, Zoe Tay, Irene Ng etc. And i saw some old friends from scgs too.. Was happy to see them.. Didn't know that so many of the scgs girls are in the creative industry now.

Didnt stay for long coz theres nothing much to do there but eat and eat, and i ate quite a fair bit! Haa the lobster and oyster was delicious! We left early.. but not early enough to reach home and talk to him. Haiz!
So long...

Hai.. anyway, hopefully i can get the photos of these two events when Hildra gets it from the PR marketing people. Then i can post up and share with u all.

Taking a break...

2007-03-13T23:35:00.000+08:00

At times, its hard to stay strong,
to be stronger than you normally is ...
Its hard to keep it inside
but its harder to say it out ...
Its hard to keep holding on
when you don't know when it'll ends ...
Its hard to keep the faith strong
when every thing's going wrong ...

It takes a spark to start a fire,
but its takes one breath to blow it out ...

2007-03-13T16:56:00.000+08:00

Escaping from doing my SM project.. Haa
Went out to get back the dress that I've lent to Ceci, and on the way I brought Nestle Chocolate Chips! And oooh~ its so darrn yummy! Hee

I have been going to gym for some work out session with xinloo, well our friend ruiling was supposed to join us, unfortunately she couldnt make it the past two weeks, and the coming sunday! Hummp!
Yup, the gym session was pretty effective for someone to "feel good" after doing close to 2 hours of it. However, a little treat for myself today is the chocolates chips. Im not going to finish it up.. i hope not.. hee
So, hopefully this gym session will continue and work out well! *cross-fingers*

Anyway, something funny happened to Andrew the other day. He went for his weekly soccer thgie, and he was really energized that day; apparently he was running faster than before. So when evening darkness creeps in, they were still playing and he was going after the ball and mouth opened coz he was panting and breathing. So what happened was he swallowed an insect.. could be a fly, cause he was running so fast that the fly just flew straight into his mouth. An natural instinct was that u swallowed your saliva when something hits the back of your throat and he started coughing. Haa i couldn't help but burst out laughing when he told me about it. What are the chances of that right? So he got a tummy ache when he went home that night.

Something else happened down at his apartment that day as well. He said he was talking to his friends downstairs his apartment when a motorcyclist drove straight into the glass door of the entrance. Seemingly, the motorcyclist was driving at a very fast speed and possibly couldn't turn round the bend in time. There were a few pubs around his areas, and i thought its possible that the guy was drunk as well. So it was quite a scare as glass were shattered, and the guy was bleeding profusely at his skull and face. The helmet was dented and petrol was leaking as well. So Andrew and his friends quickly went over to help the guy out of the motorcycle and away from the leaking petrol. Couldn't move him much, in case his spinal cord was broken and it would be dangerous to shift him as it might lead to paralysis. Thankfully the fire engine and ambulance came quickly, but unfortunately the ambulance couldn't send the guy to the hospital in time. He was pronounced dead upon reaching the hospital.

Thankfully, Andrew and his friends were standing away from the glass door. There were two section of seating areas near the entrance; one is the part facing directly to the entrance and the other was the right side corner of it. If they would have stand at the first section, it would be too late or too sudden for them to react by moving away from the motorcyclist. Thank God for that!
Its really scary at times, when you were away from the road or the traffic and yet accidents like that could happen. Its really a tragedy for that guy, he was in his twenties i think.

Sigh*
Anyway, was looking at Delias spree this morning and i saw this top which i think wasn't too bad. But after doing the conversion of rates, i decided that it was too expensive! Haa..

Sigh i should get back to my work... How exciting!

2007-03-12T23:33:00.000+08:00

Hey guys,

Welcome to my new blog!
Sadly, I had to switch my blog to this as my previous are giving me some posting errors.

For those who misses my last, this is the addy:

http://www.shatteredstone.blogspot.com

Anyway, this season is "in" for yellow colour and vintage is still on the roll,
which are the reasons why I chose this template.

Updates for the last few weeks...

Been really busy with my individual SM project, its a torture and i hate analysis.. and crap its taking up 40% of my entire grade for this module! Suckz!
Went for Gai's bdae celebration last Wednesday after lecture,and we went Vivocity for some shopping and dinner, after which we cross over to St James Power Station for a chill out session. We tried to make her drunk but wasn't
successful. Haa~

Anywae, here are the pics...

Ladies at the toilet..

Marian edging for the food! Gluttony is a sin..haa

I love the Vittoria...

Gai giving her bdae speech

The prettiest four!

Bdae gal and me

Babes with something "white" on them..

Marian and me

Finally i took a picture here!
Silvia & Me

Been craving for shopping these few days and there were lots of sprees online.. hee brought something...

The pink half jacket.
Wanted to get the silvish grey one, but decided against it as its too common

Now thinking between this two or none?!