Monday, November 3, 2008
/ 9:36 PM
The Excitement is over
Came back from my Bali trip and everything is back to normal, work is piling up once again as the month end draws nearer. When will i get out of this job?
Two colleagues have left the department to join another, the Hedge team, its kind of like a lateral promotion for them but as i count the strength of my department, it is down to 9 people. Will it be a repeat of September 07 again? I entered the company in August 07 and when September came, from a total head count of 18 people, it dropped 6 people; the boss left along as well. I'm tired of this routine job despite the comfortable environment of working with a group of young and energetic colleagues; there are a chain of never ending activities to maximize our weekends to the fullest.
My dream seems further and further. I know i have no one to blame.
I don't know.
I'm scared that I will never know and I will always be like this.
I wish i could disappear like her, just put aside everything and go away for a while. But the conscious rational mind of mine knows that I need to be responsible for my choices and not make everyone else worry. Everyone except me shall not be burden with this.
Tomorrow is another day..
Came back from my Bali trip and everything is back to normal, work is piling up once again as the month end draws nearer. When will i get out of this job?
Two colleagues have left the department to join another, the Hedge team, its kind of like a lateral promotion for them but as i count the strength of my department, it is down to 9 people. Will it be a repeat of September 07 again? I entered the company in August 07 and when September came, from a total head count of 18 people, it dropped 6 people; the boss left along as well. I'm tired of this routine job despite the comfortable environment of working with a group of young and energetic colleagues; there are a chain of never ending activities to maximize our weekends to the fullest.
My dream seems further and further. I know i have no one to blame.
I don't know.
I'm scared that I will never know and I will always be like this.
I wish i could disappear like her, just put aside everything and go away for a while. But the conscious rational mind of mine knows that I need to be responsible for my choices and not make everyone else worry. Everyone except me shall not be burden with this.
Tomorrow is another day..
We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been
found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and
peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus
I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer
you need to enter into your own reality and reflect
it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band
felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's
all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal
thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. 
