Sunday, February 17, 2008
/ 9:26 PM
I guess im not truly happy.
Maybe i did change the past six months; after stepping into the dog eat dog world,
where everyone is just protecting their own people, own job and doing what
they are paid to do.
My temper and patience has aggravated to the next level, and i realized that
im more skeptical now.
To a certain degree, im closing myself up for various reasons that i wish could do something about.
I dwell in my own tristesse and retrieve comforts from listening to certain songs on repeat,
which actually puts me deeper into my dark mood. I look at it* and feel sad at the things that i see but blame myself for how things has developed. My mind is screwed and my hands are tied.
Im lost in the sea of people where sadness lurks behind
We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been
found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and
peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus
I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer
you need to enter into your own reality and reflect
it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band
felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's
all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal
thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. 
