Sunday, March 25, 2007
/ 10:31 PM
They say that people under the Pisces star sign are very idealistic.
I didn't think so initially, there are situations when we accept the flaws
and learn to see the beauty in it.
But more and more, the "truth" weave in silently into my life.
I'm shocked with my expectations of certain issues
and how insistence that I pursue it accordingly.
I'm afraid that I could not adjust myself if i lower
these expectations of mine,
as it would not be prefect after that.
Is it wrong to hold on so firm?
Even after awhile I'm so tired of it,
its hurting me but yet i feel a need to stand firm.
Letting go of what I believe in would only
make me feel more injustice inside.
But time and again, situations kept popping up and testing
this side of me. Its breaking me and it just makes me wonder
why I'm getting all these..
Why cant it go away ..
I'm trying very hard to handle it,
so please stop coming back...
I think I have a problem that I need to overcome
but i don't know how...
I didn't think so initially, there are situations when we accept the flaws
and learn to see the beauty in it.
But more and more, the "truth" weave in silently into my life.
I'm shocked with my expectations of certain issues
and how insistence that I pursue it accordingly.
I'm afraid that I could not adjust myself if i lower
these expectations of mine,
as it would not be prefect after that.
Is it wrong to hold on so firm?
Even after awhile I'm so tired of it,
its hurting me but yet i feel a need to stand firm.
Letting go of what I believe in would only
make me feel more injustice inside.
But time and again, situations kept popping up and testing
this side of me. Its breaking me and it just makes me wonder
why I'm getting all these..
Why cant it go away ..
I'm trying very hard to handle it,
so please stop coming back...
I think I have a problem that I need to overcome
but i don't know how...
We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been
found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and
peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus
I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer
you need to enter into your own reality and reflect
it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band
felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's
all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal
thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. 
